Poem Cycle

Insomnia (II)

Here is a secret I kept to myself for so long

I will tell you the issue I've had for so long

I couldn't sleep because of her

I was crushed by her

She just left me out of nowhere 

I had a fear that she is actually nowhere

Since I couldn't find that girl

I just need a little hint to find that girl

Yet, she left no hints

She cleaned up her tracks with no trace or hints

That is when I developed this insomnia

I had nightmares everyday, so I formed this insomnia

I felt myself getting smaller

I never thought as days go by that  her heart will also get smaller

I knew that my heart was getting larger for her

Yet, I guess that was just me and not her

I could feel this loneliness down my bones

I need her before I this loneliness spread any further to my bones

I need her warm embrace

I missed her and that embrace

I am always going on this trail of love

This lonely trail of love

Was it just me loving her the whole time

I wonder if she remembers all our memories or is it faded by time

I could feel my spirit breaking apart 24/7

I looked for her like a maniac for 24/7

Maybe I am blind

Everywhere I looked there was no her so am I blind

Did we have this connection?

Where did it go, that connection?

I am forever waiting for her

Since I am controlled by her

I guess I just have endure this insomnia I developed

When is she coming back to memories we developed

Did she already forget it?

Am I the only waiting for her to grab it?

I was rejected for a while now

Yet, I waited up to now

Can't she realize that I am suffering from insomnia?

Can't she realize that she is the only one that get rid of this insomnia?

Does she really want to kill me slowly?

I guess then I am willing to die slowly

Doctors tried fix my insomnia

But I knew nothing, but her... will fix my insomnia

I knew she wasn't going come back to me

Yet, I wanted to believe she was going come to me

Then I guess I have suffer for the rest of my life

Since she is only one in my life