Poem Cycle

Throbbing

I can feel the throbbing pain down my throat.

I wonder if I can survive this attack my heart keeps giving me.

I guess it all in the mind.

The memories of us won't leave me alone;

I feel like it's like a pair of chains dragging me

Across the plains, 

Across the mountains.

I wonder when this will stop.

Will there be a time I can be set free?

The light is shining too brightly.

The light continues to blind me.

Yet, not enough to comfort me.

I can still your voice so clearly in my head.

Why can't I get you out of my head?

Where are you right now?

Don't you remember me anymore?

Don't you remember that you need to save me?

I can feel your presence near me.

However, you never come out.

You never come near enough.

I hate you for leaving me like that.

I hate every part of you,

from your voice to your very existence.

You crush me every time with no regret.

You caused me to throb non stop everyday.

The moment I fall asleep to the moment I wake up,

I only see you in those moments.

Why couldn't you just leave with those memories 

instead of leaving them behind?

You are always never blurry in my blurry memory.

I always remember you too exactly and too well.

I search for you over and over again.

I'm not even sure why, 

But you got me tied up in your little fingers.

I can't believe you are in my dreams.

Why did you cause this throbbing pain?

I can't believe I looked up to you.

All those memories are too painful for me to handle,

Even in my dreams,

Is this what you call love?

I can't believe myself for loving you.

I should have listened

When everybody else said you were trouble.

I hate this throbbing pain I feel as I express my pain.

Nothing is working out for me.

I can't believe I love you up to this moment.

I can't believe I hate you up to this moment.

Why didn't you save me then or now?

Why did you cause this throbbing pain?

When will this throbbing stop?