Poem Cycle

The Fool

It's been obvious for months,

Yet, I ignored it as long as I can.

I tried to hide myself with a façade,

hoping that it will go away very soon.

I didn't want to accept the facts, clearly.

I should of seen it coming.

I should have known that you will do that.

I can't believe that I believed in forever.

I kept thinking that I can cure us

the incurable last stage of cancer.

Why is the world so bad?

I wanted to believe.

I just wanted to believe in us.

I should have realized

The love between us was never there.

I kept trying to grow a dead flower,

hoping it will nurture with love,

but a dead flower is the end.

I existed just for you,

But, you weren't the same.

Why are you so bad to me?

Why are you making me go so low?

You made me smile even in my sad days.

Yet, you didn't express same emotions.

I shouldn't have built my foundation on the sand.

That is the reason why I came to a downfall.

Was my foundation that weak for you?

I was able to act strong when I was weak

just for you.

When I came one step closer toward you, 

you stepped a step backward

until you were unreachable.

That is what we were the whole time.

Were you just playing pretend with me.

I thought it was just a push and pull relationship.

It was just fake.

We were just the imitation of true love.

I was a fool then.

I am still a fool looking for you.

I don't know even why.

You fool.