Poem Cycle

It's all Rumors

(I)

It actually wasn't that long ago.

Recently, their words spread a cold.

Somebody told me that they saw you with somebody else.

That you looked happy and satisfied with life.

I will tell you the truth.

I felt weak and horrible when I heard that news.

Have you already forgotten me?

There is no way that could happen, right?

We were so happy together before.

You couldn't have moved on to another that fast?

(I)

It's all rumors right?

How am I suppose to react to this?

I still can't forget you up to now

I can't erase any of our memories

I remember us like it happened yesterday.

I keep up a mask that illustrates that I am fine. 

I want to believe that all these rumors are lies,

But why does my heart feel confined and demoralized?

I am just hoping that they saw you with the wrong person.

Every phrase, sentences, and words are pinning me down.

You are so cold and harsh to me.

How could you let this type of rumor spread to me?

I need to keep up with my act, but I can feel my façade wither apart.

(II)

It's so hard to act like I'm okay and cool with the whole breakup.

So, I quickly let the rumor spread of me that I am moving on.

Hoping you feel something... anything towards me again.

All words from my friends kept confusing me,

Telling me that you had somebody else next to you, too.

I don't want to believe any of it.

Yet, I could feel the rumors getting to my nerves

Where is your love right now?

It seems like I am in this one-sided love. 

Where did everything go wrong?

(I)

I just heard another rumor.

It seems like these rumors are getting out of hand,

but I wonder if you feel shattered as me from all these whispers?

This rumor is about me.

That I was with somebody like you.

However, that never happened ever before.

I will prove this by giving up everything.

I guess fate wants to pull us apart.

Is fate and everybody else jealous of our love?

You should know that these rumors are just rumors,

But I wonder if you still care to know?

(II)

I felt like I was tricked by you all this time.

I tried to separate myself from you.

Yet I kept searching for you in everybody I met.

There is no way that you erased me that easily and happily.

I tried to do the same and let the rumors consume me.

I thought I could happily erased you like you did with me.

I thought I could be okay with everything around me?

But, there is no way that's going to work.

(II)

How did we grow this much apart?

It's all the rumors.

I am hearing everything from here and there.

It is making me confused on what is real or not.

I am getting sick of tired of figuring out the truth.

You should know that I can't make it without you.

That my lover has to be you or else it won't due.

Come save me, my love before this rumor burns me with its' fire.

(I)

It's all lies.

Don't listen to those rumors.

I hope you believe in my heart and my words.

I will believe you at all cost.

I know that I will be weak at times.

But, I will believe in our love that we had before.

So, look at me in the eye and tell me it's all a lie.

I will believe you even if it is all a lie, for the sake of my self.

(II)

I am still curious if I could believe you with all these rumors.

These rumors are manipulating my mind with such ease.

Can you tell me that I am not late?

Tell me that there is nobody in your eyes but me?

I will sacrifice everything to you.

To prove that rumors about me is just rumors

but, will you do the same for me?

I am too scared of your answer for all of these rumors.

Can you come back to me to please?

Tell me that it's all a rumor?

Even if it is all a lie?

Just tell me what I want to hear, to save me from these constant whispers.