Poem Cycle

Even if I am trapped

I been walking on a path way

I always have to make the final decision

In which way I should go 

I always went on the most dangerous roadway

I fell in love with someone

I got hurt by them

The pain was so much 

That I wanted to ripe out my heart

 I should have chosen the safest pathway

I shouldn't have gone that way

I wanted to live without a heart

Even if I am trapped 

I still had feelings for you

Why can't I let you go?

You are always killing me in the inside

I am always hiding it

I wear a mask because of you

I had to hide from you

I tried my best to forget you

I tried to get rid of you

Then I had to face reality 

You were always near me 

I was always near you

It was killing so much

It was hurting me too much

I was enduring too much

But I kept enduring

I am completely trapped by you

Nowhere to hide

Nowhere to run

I want to be free 

I want to go back to my old self

Even if I am trapped 

I still want to like you

I want to trust you

I always trust you no matter what

That's my problem

Why did I have to face this

This one-sided love

No slowly I am getting more crazy

I am sick and tired of this

Still even though I am trapped 

I can't stop this process

I can't stop my heart from beating 

When it's around you 

You are always changing 

You threw me away so heartlessly

I know I was nothing to you

I know I was a just a play thing

Still I trusted you

I fell for your words

I fell hard for your voice

Your sweet, addicting voice

I wish I can let you go

I want to fly away from this nightmare

You always appear in my dream

Why are you bothering me like this

Even though you trapped me 

Placed me with your other toys

I still want to think I am somewhat special

I am going insane 

I need someone to free me from your tight grip 

I need someone to save me from this nightmare I am going through

I want to forget you so bad

But it's too hard to let go

I shouldn't have grabbed you 

I regret everything 

I could feel my heart go cold 

I don't feel like myself anymore

Even though I want to be free 

Even though I want to forget you

Even though I was erase all our memories

Still there is a part of me that doesn't want to forget 

That doesn't want to be free 

That doesn't want to erase everything 

Even though I am contained 

Even though I am hurt 

Even though I am going to get more pain

Even though I want to be free 

Even though I am trapped 

I can't stop this feeling for you

I am sure of that 

I guess I really love you...... too much