Poem Cycle

Gone

My eyes are always wondering off too often.

To a place I never should have looked towards.

I should have not searched for you.

This world is full of girls.

Yet, you are only one that I look for.

Nobody shines like you.

I hate myself for looking for you

You never wanted my feelings from the beginning.

I never wanted your feelings either...

Well, that is what I told myself at the start line.

Despite the fact, my heart disagreed with my mind.

We weren't supposed to be emotionally attached.

However, I got attached like super glue.

I wonder if you are attached to me too.

I'm too scared to get any closer and dive deeper into the unknown.

Are you scared too?

What if I was wrong that you also feel the same as me.

I shouldn't have dove too deeply into your sea.

Why can't I be logical and analytical with love? 

Why am I acting rash and irrational when you are around?

My eyes won't stop looking towards your direction.

What are you doing to me?

What am I doing to myself?

You have this addicting flavor.

Do I have the same effect to you?

I need these feelings gone,

it is overflowing my mind like a plague.

I can't get this feelings to be gone.

I knew it was karma to meet you.

The warning signs are everywhere I looked,

but I ignored it and brushed it past me.

You held the words dangers on you.

I still got allured.

I couldn't control myself.

You were that special girl. 

You lurked around my presence too often.

I am starting to feel confused with your mixed signals.

Can't you just be direct to me?

I feel confused with my overwhelming feelings.

Are you trying to mess with my brain?

I seriously need you gone.