High School Mayhem

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Chapter 61: Don't Wait
~Lyrvanna~

"Lyrvanna, I need to talk to you." Laurance walks up to me. I pretend that I can't hear him but he grabs my hand and I freeze. "Please?"

"Sorry," I pull an earbud out of my ear, "I couldn't hear you, my music was pretty loud, what was that?"

He lifts up the end of my cord. "It's not plugged in."

"Huh, no wonder why the song was just a bunch of high schoolers talking in the hallway." I laugh awkwardly as I rub my arm.

"I know you're busy trying to avoid me and all but can we please talk?" He looks at me hopefully.

"I guess I'll have to cancel my avoid you plan for right now. What is it?"

He looks around. "Not here." Still holding my hand, he pulls me into a nearby janitor closet. "Here."

"Here?"

"Yeah... less people to stumble in on our conversation."

"Oh. So, um, what did you want to talk about?"

"Us."

"Us?" I laugh breathily. "There isn't an us."

"That's the point." He shakes his head. "Lyrvanna, I do like you," Laurance says, which is a lie.

I shake my head, "No, you—" before I finish, I feel his lips on mine.

<<GAH>>

This time I do kiss back unable to contain myself. His hands wrap around my waist pulling me closer to him. I wrap my arms around his shoulders as I stand on my tippy toes since he's taller. <<Disclaimer: I didn't write that, I'm too pure-- WAY too pure for my age but I was dared to keep it in so I did though technically... I did edit it to be purer. AshlynnTheDoll wrote it so... blame her>>

He breaks the kiss still holding me close, "Lyrvanna, I do really really like you. That time when we were texting, it was a typo. I meant to say I don't like you as just a friend. I like you as so much more."

"B-But you're 18, I'm 16." I look away from him.

"Well yeah, but who's really going to care? It's only two years, when it's two years it's not illegal."

"That's still pedophilia in my eyes, Mr. Adult," I pull away from him wishing I never opened my big mouth.

"If it bothers you that much, I'll wait," he says.

He'll wait?

My shoulders slump as I stare at the ground, I don't want him to wait for me, I want him to live his life. "No," I sigh.

He's taken back, "No?"

"No. I don't want you to wait for me. I want you to date other people if you want to, and not have to think about what you said about waiting for me. I also don't want to get in the sticky situation of my crush on you fading and throbbing for someone else but having to wait for you. I doubt that would happen but just in case." I explain.

Laurance nods, "Yeah, I get it," he sighs, "I doubt the part about me liking another girl will happen though."

"Who knows, maybe a lot of beautiful people are going to be at your college." I shrug.

"Not as beautiful as you."

"So cliche..." I sigh even though I loved it. "Laur... nothing can happen between us, we're friends, just friends."

"But it doesn't have to be that way."

"Yes, it does. Our friendship is written in stone."

Laurance runs his fingers through his hair then he leans against the wall. "And how is that fair? I like you and I'm guessing and hoping that you like me, so why is it written in stone? Why can't we date?"

I take a seat on the floor and pull my knees up to my chest. It's a really small space in here and it's even smaller with all this cleaning junk in here. I shake it off and keep talking to distract myself. "What's the point of dating someone anyway? Isn't it just like being friends except with kissing privileges?"

"It's more than that, it's just hard to explain. I guess it's the type of thing that you have to experience for yourself." Laurance shrugs as he sits on the floor next to me.

"It's like when you kiss someone then..." I lay my head on my knees and look over to him. "At first, I thought kissing was meaningless, you just do it because it's what you're expected to do but it's different. I don't know how to explain but it's better and not meaningless." <<Right? I only kiss myself in the mirror. Should I delete that? Oh wow, people are going to think I'm weird, which I am>>

<<Editing Author~chan: I'm weirded out by myself... I really want to delete that but I'm leaving it as punishment for saying it in the first place.>>

"Exactly..." Moments later, I realize how close we are, way closer than a couple seconds ago. All of the anticipations kill me and I break the gap myself.

It's like there's electricity surging throughout me as we kiss. It's a certain closeness that I don't want to end but it does when I pull away.

"I don't know why I did that. I'm sorry." I stand up. "I-I..."

"Lyrvanna, it's okay," he says standing up too.

"It's not! I'm— You—" I stumble on my words, I feel like I'm going insane. "This will never work! We can never be together! It's just not written in the stars, there's nothing we can do!"

"If we like each other, how is it not written in the stars?"

"Because there are things that just keep us apart. Ages, your college, I'm not even a relationship kind of person... I can't be the way they are in movies!"

"You don't have to be like that, you just have to be you, I like you and not anyone else. And we can wait until after college."

"No! Don't wait! Don't wait! Live your life! Go wild! Date people in college, DON'T WAIT FOR ME!" I slide back onto the floor with tears spilling out of my eyes. The thought of him dating someone kills me, I don't want him to but I think it's going to happen anyway so why not prepare myself for it. I feel like I'm going insane and it's even worse being in this closet. "I'm sorry but I can never see you after this, it's too painful. I need to get out of here," I whisper and dash out of the room.

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Fun fact:

I wasn't going to add this chapter in the story because I wrote as dramatic writing practice but I was lazy and I had zero ideas about what to write next so instead I added this in.