Falling in Love

Chapter 35

I'm about to go on stage, I'm so nervous. The boys just came back stage after their first act.
"Are you ready?" Ashton says looking at me.
"I don't know do I look ok? Will I sound ok?" I ask panicking.
"You look like a goddess" He laughs.
"And you'll sound amazing, like always" he gives me a hug and the stage goes black signalling them to go back out. I grab my microphone and Luke wheels me out next to him. The fans start to scream. They get ready. The guitar rift starts.
"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?" I smile, I'm really having fun.
"'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all"
I finish and look back at Ash. He's smiling at me, he winks. I blow him a kiss as he gets up. I hug Luke and Michael as all the fans scream. Calum comes over grabs my hand putting it up in the air, his other hand has his bass in the air as well. I laugh. I look over and see Ashton next to me. I  stand up and hug him and he spins me around I kiss him as he puts me back in my chair. A crew member comes out and pushes me backstage where Crystal meets me. She smiling so big. She passes me my phone, she had FaceTimed Kirsten so she could see me perform.
"You did so good oh my god!!" She says wiping away a tear.
"Thanks baby and don't cry I love you!"
"I love you to I wish I could have been there with you"
"You will be one day I promise"
"I have to go I've been in the bathroom for like ten minutes so" she laughs and say our goodbyes.
"I miss her" I say looking Crystal.
"I know you do, we all do as well"