Nakatingin si Julie sa master piece na ginawa niya a month ago. The feeling is still the same. Parang laging may kulang, para bang laging nalang na may nawawala sa puzzle na binubuo niya.
Napahinga siya ng malalim nang makita niya ang picture frame na inilagay ni Elmo sa ibabaw ng piano niya. Dahan-dahan niyang inilapat ang kanyang mga kamay sa keys at nagsimula ng tugtugin ang piyesa na matagal niya ng binubuo.
I remember your bare feet
Down the hallway
I remember your little laugh
Race cars on the kitchen floor
Plastic dinosaurs
I love you to the moon and back
Ipinikit ni Julie ang kanyang mga mata para alalahanin ang inspirasyon niya sa kantang iyon.
I remember your blue eyes
Looking into mine
Like we had our own secret club
I remember your dancing before bedtime
Then jumping on me waking me up
I can still feel you hold my hand
Little man
And even in the moment I knew
You fought it hard like an army guard
Remember I, leaned in and whispered to you
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years
Mas diniinan pa niya ang bawat pagpindot niya sa mga key habang pa isa-isang pumapasok sa isip niya ang mga alaala ni Bullet na matagal na niyang iniiwasang maalala.
I remember the drive home
When the blind hope
Turned to crying and screaming why
Flowers pile up in the worst way
No one knows what to say
About a beautiful boy who died
And it's about to be halloween
You could be anything
You wanted if you were still here
I remember the last day
When I kissed your face
And I whispered in your ear
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
Out of this curtained room
And this hospital grey will just disappear
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years
What if I'm standing in your closet
Trying to talk to you?
And what if I kept your hand-me-downs
You won't grow in to?
And what if I really thought some miracle
Would see us through?
And what if the miracle was even getting
One moment with you?
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years
I remember you bare feet
Down the hallway
I love you to the moon and
Back...
Think of me as a caterpillar in a cocoon. Someday I will be born again, it could be tomorrow, could be the day after tomorrow or even months from now... basta ang alam ko you will always be my mommy in another life. And when that day comes, I will become your butterfly again.
Paulit -ulit na nagpe-playback ang mgaa katagang iyon sa isip ni Julie matapos niyang tugtugin ang kantang ginawa niya para kay Bullet. Apat na taon narin ang nakalipas simula noong nawala sa kanila sa Bullet. Katulad ng ibang ina na nawalan ng anak, galing man ito sa kanila o hindi, nakakaranas din si Julie ng pangungulila sa batang minahal niya buhat ng araw na nakita nila ito sa harap ng kanilang pinto.
"Hi Bullet-" She pressed her lips. "I want you to know that mommy still misses you every day." She smiled. "You know what son, the day Elmo and I found you at our front door, I just knew, God sent me a blessing... and that was you." She smiled again. "Bullet, please don't ever forget that you will always have a piece of my heart. And baby, thank you for giving me and Elmo a second chance. Thank you for being such an amazing angel. I will always love you Bullet. Remember that you will always be a San Jose - Magalona baby and that you'll always be our first born child."
