Wilbur POV
How am I still here why didn't I just end it all then? I can't stay awake any longer
I
I don't want to wake up tomorrow.
I'm so dramatic.. I shouldn't have yelled at them over something small I'm stupid.
Im stupid
Im dumb
Im stupid
Im dumb
Ill never be enough.
I'll never be happy.
End it here
You have the stuff
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Nothing stopped my thoughts. That's unordinary. Isn't it. No Karl, no techno, no Tommy. nobody.
nobody
nobody cares. They know how suicidal I am and they still laugh at me when I'm acting up, I can't control it. Then they still laugh after I literally STAB my hand. I can't take it anymore.
This is it
nothing
I walked into the grand hallway, seeing dust particles shine with the window light. This is it. Not gonna be like last time, I'm actually doing this.
I'll see you Quackity.
I trotted up to the attic, looking for a long enough rope. My eyes led me to an old, rustic, brown rope. I grasped it tightly, feeling every thorny hair poke out into my hand. Everything felt ten times more real now, Every breath and smell. All stronger.
I slowly stumbled back to my room, the place i'd do it. Nonono I can't die. But I want to.
I tied the rope around the fan, making a noose. I stood back, looking at the rope hanging down. I grabbed a stool, standing on it.
I put my hands around both sides of the rope, putting it over my head and around my neck.
This is it.
I'm sorry Tommy, I'm sorry Karl, I'm sorry Phil, I'm sorry Techno.
Hopefully you all don't miss me as much as I miss you. Goodnight.
I kicked the stool over, instantly choking. Oh god oh god oh god what did I do??? I'm.
I don't want to do it oh holy shit.
I kicked and swung around, clawing at the rope. I struggled so much that the rope snapped, and there I was.
Panting and crying on my floor, a noose tied around my neck. I let out many choked sobs, I need to get up. If anyone finds me like—
"Wil?" oh shit.
I turned to the door, seeing Tommy shaking. Nononono out of all people WHY HIM??
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