Jealous | Tommyinnit angst

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Tommy POV

"Wil- Please he- AH!" I screamed in agony as Purpled punched me through the stomach. It felt like three dumbells were being dropped on my body repeatedly, he was so strong.

I stared into Wilbur's eyes, he just stood terrified. Why isn't he helping? Is he mad at me? This hurts so bad.

Purpled stomped on my face and walked off, Wilbur quickly came over. He took me to the bathroom and washed me off.
I hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you.
sheer hatred was what I had for him right now. I tried to be strong and look tough for him so he'd maybe be proud of me but I just ended up getting punted, then he just watched. when Purpled left he helped me. Why not before?

I stomped out of the bathroom, calling Ranboo.

"Hey, Tommy!" He answered a little late, I assume he had to step out of class.

"Can you take me to your place? I'm having a shit day." I sighed, feeling guilty for stopping him from working.

"I'm in class- but I can ask the teacher if I can leave. What happened?" He asked.

"It's alright if you cant but if you come to me you'll see, I'm in the main hall."

"Ok.. I'll leave, one second." He hung up, I just waited up against a locker. Tapping my foot anxiously. He's going to think i'm so weak.
I suddenly saw a tall figure coming towards me, when I turned towards him he jumped a little. "God.. Did you get mauled?! What happened? Are you alright???" He held my cheek, worriedly.

"N-no. I just wanna go home." I leaned into his chest, depending on him for support. He hugged me tightly so I wouldn't fall.

"Let's go c'mon. You can tell me when you're safe." He smiled and led me to his car.

"Tommy.. Who did that.?" Ranboo drove.

"Purpled.." I mumbled quietly. He looked pissed, like he was gonna turn back around and run him over.

"It won't happen again." His mood changed suddenly to a smile, he is scary.

"Wilbur was there too."

"What?! Did he hurt you??" Ranboo looked out of place, very confused.

"No- But he watched me get beat up.. He didnt do anything!" I yelled in anger, his face changed from confused to disgusted.

"What is with him?! Holy cow he needs something put through his head. Cause it isn't clicking for him." Ranboo seethed, talking about Wil.

I laughed a little as we got out of the car, he made me feel much better already.
I wish I were like him.
"Thank you so much." I sat on his floor.

"Sit on the couch?!" He laughed, "I'm gonna go get bandages and an ice pack, alright?" He walked into the kitchen.

I just waited and put something on TV. Pulling out my phone, I texted Karl.

'I'm spending the night with Ranboo, is that alright?' The text read.

I saw him typing, 'Yeah, have fun!' Karl replied.

I hearted the message then looked and Wilbur and I's texts, it was a bunch of apologies. I rolled my eyes and sighed, just as Ranboo came back inside. He sat down next to me and started bandaging my wounds and put an icepack on my cheek. "What happened?" he looked at my phone.

"Just Wilbur begging for forgiveness.." I grumbled at the phone.

"I'm sure he feels bad Tommy, everyone reacts different to stuff like that. Has he ever gone through stuff like that?" He tilt in question.

"I don't-" Then I realized.. He did. Is that why he didn't want to go to school that bad? I remember when we went out for food that one day.. That group of boys wanted to hurt me, but he ended up getting hurt.

"He did." I admitted.

Ranboo took it calmly, "Well he was probably very scared, you have every right to be upset. But don't blame it all on him." Ranboo suggested, I took his advice to heart.. How is he so calm all the time. if it wasn't for him I'd probably be screaming and Wil right now.

"I really have to thank you Ranboo, and I wont. Thanks." I looked down and smiled, he passed me some water.

"It's alright!! Anything to make you feel better, ya know?" He patted my back.

I teared up a little, "What am I gonna do?.."

"Well you can text Wil saying you are better now! you don't have to forgive him but you can just talk. And don't worry about Purpled." He smiled.

"I guess I can try that. Not right now though.. and what about Purpled?" I looked to him.

"I said don't worry about it, I'll talk to him."

"Whatever you say.." I looked back at the TV, warily.

Wilbur POV

I didn't go back to class, I just ran, ran and ran until my legs gave out. I don't know where I am??? Where am I? I laid on the floor, trying to get up. My legs didn't let me, this is what I get for not eating.. isnt it.

I texted Tommy with tears in my eyes. Im so sorry im so so sorry i wont do it again i promise. I spammed him multiple times whilst breaking down. Im so annoying he probably hates me now.

Fucking Ranboo. He has to be with Ranboo. I know him. Why can I never just be good to Tommy? What am I doing wrong. First it's Karl he chooses over me, now it's Ranboo. Who's next. I hate this feeling of envy. I just wanted to scream my lungs out. I'm so jealous but I can't say that or i'm an awful person.

Im so close

I was so close to fucking ending my life the other day and this is just the final push I need. I need to leave.

Somewhere away from here I just don't think I can do it anymore.

Who?

Where?

I opened my messages, scrolling through.

Techno?