I was almost done decorating the cupcakes when Colby came into the kitchen. "Violet." He said as I hummed and looked up at him. "You didn't sleep did you?" He asked as I sighed. "I couldn't." I said and focused on putting sprinkles on the cupcakes.
"Violet Renee." He said as I groaned. "What Colby?" I asked and looked up at him. "You know why I'm upset." He said and crossed his arms. "It's not a big deal. I feel fine." I said as he clenched his jaw.
"It is a big deal because you're growing a child. OUR child. You need to rest, Violet. Do you want to pass out again? Or worse?" He asked as I sighed. "I won't. And if I do then it'll be my fault." I said as he took my hands.
"Please, V...don't shut down like this." He said as I breathed a laugh. "I'm seriously not doing anything. I tried to sleep, but I couldn't because I'm so restless. I'll try again later, I promise." I said as he sighed.
"You can't tell me you're not doing anything when you've made both cupcakes and cookies. I know you only bake when you're in a crisis." He said as I nodded. "That is correct." I said then turned to do the dishes.
"So you're admitting you're not okay?" Colby asked as I threw the bowl I was holding into the sink. "No! I'm not okay! God, is that what you wanted to hear?! My best friend is in a coma, why the hell would I be okay!?" I yelled as I turned to him.
I didn't like getting angry with Colby but I couldn't help it. I was hormonal, sleep deprived, and anxious, which was a recipe for disaster.
"Violet..." He said as I huffed out a breath and turned around, feeling my eyes burning with tears. "Just let me be sad." I said quietly as I started washing the dishes.
"Please just let me help you, V." Colby said as he walked behind me and put his hands on my arms, stopping me from doing anything. "You can't. Nothing you can do with help me right now, just please stop nagging me." I begged as he turned me around to face him.
"I'm sorry..I just don't want you to fall apart on me. I'm worried about you." He said as I shook my head. "It's too late." I mumbled then looked up into his eyes.
"I"m just so worried about Ki. I feel like it's my fault." I said quietly as he brushed my hair back from my face. "Why is it your fault?" He asked as I sighed. "Everyone I love dies." I mumbled as he sighed.
"Baby...that's not true. This was an accident that you had no control over. She's also not dead, V. She's gonna be okay." He said as my face scrunched up. "What if she isn't though?" I asked as the tears started falling down my cheeks.
"Shhhh..she's gonna be okay." He whispered and hugged me, holding me tightly against him. I sobbed into his chest as the emotions coursed through my veins. I cried for a while before I finally pulled away from him.
"Can we go see her now?" I asked as he nodded. "Yeah. Just promise me you'll try to sleep later." He said as I nodded and wiped my cheeks. "I promise." I said then turned to clean the kitchen. "We should stop and get her flowers." I said quietly as I started cleaning.
"We can do that." Colby said and started helping me. "And a blanket..I don't want her to get cold." I said as he nodded. "That's a good idea." He said with a smile.
We cleaned up the kitchen then got ready to go. I was really getting tired but I wanted to see Ki more than I wanted to sleep. We stopped at the store and got some flowers and a fluffy blanket. We also grabbed some nail polish and lotion so I could give her a manicure while I was there.
When we got to the hospital we went to the ICU waiting area. Sam and Kat were the only ones in there which meant that Shawn was probably in the room with Ki. "Hey, guys." Colby said as I sat down next to Kat. "Hey, what'd you bring?" Kat asked and pointed the boxes of pastries I had.
"Oh! I made cookies and cupcakes." I said as she nodded. "Can I have some?" She asked as I nodded and handed her the container of cupcakes. "Is Shawn back there?" I asked as Sam nodded. "Yeah, we can go back there when he comes back." He said as Kat grabbed a cupcake.
"We can go back together?" I asked as Sam nodded. "Yeah, we can actually all go back now, we just wanted to give Shawn some time alone with her." He explained as I nodded. "That's good, because I'm gonna be in there all day." I explained. "That is true." Colby said with a nod.
We sat there for a while before we decided to go back to the room. Shawn was sitting next to Ki, holding her hand as she slept peacefully. "Hey, Shawn." I said as we walked in. "Oh! Hey." He said and looked up at us with a small smile.
"Cupcake? Cookie?" I asked and held out the boxes of pastries. "Shit, I'm starving." He said and took the boxes from me. "Enjoy." I said with a smile then grabbed the shopping bag from Colby.
"Hey, babes. We brought you some flowers and a blanket." I said with a smile as I unpacked the bag. "I'm also gonna do your nails so you feel like a hot bitch when you wake up." I said then grabbed the blanket and fluffed it out over her legs.
"Who are we kidding though, you're a hot bitch right now." I said then sat down on the other side of the bed. "Kat and I are gonna grab some food, did you guys want anything?" Sam asked as I nodded. "I'll take anything." I said then took Ki's hand and started taking off the nail polish she was wearing.
"Yeah, same." Colby said then sat next to me. "Okay, we'll be back." He said as I handed Colby the bottle of nail polish so he could hold it for me. "Would you guys mind if I went home to shower and clean up?" Shawn asked as I shook my head. "No, we'll stay with her." I said then started painting Ki's nails.
"Thanks guys." He said then stood up and grabbed his crutches. "Need some help, bro?" Colby asked as Shawn shook his head. "No, I'm all good." He said then leaned down and kissed Ki's forehead before leaving the room.
"You're gonna be a good mom, ya know." Colby said as I focused. "I don't know about that." I said and lowered Ki's hand so it could rest on the bed. "You're literally painting Ki's nails right now, because you want her to feel pretty when she wakes up." He said as I got up to go to the other side of the bed.
"Yeah..I just want her to feel as good as she can." I said quietly then got to work on her other hand. "It's sweet." Colby said quietly as I nodded. "I guess so." I said then smiled softly and looked up at him for a second.
He was looking at me with so much love I thought that my heart was gonna explode. "What?" I asked quietly as he laughed. "I just love you." He said as I laughed. "Ki would be gagging right about now." I said then looked at her face.
I felt my eyes water slightly seeing how pale she was. I wanted so desperately for her to just open her eyes and tell me how ridiculous I was for being worried about her.
"I miss you." I whispered then looked down at her hand and started painting her nails again. "Do you think she can actually hear us?" Colby asked as I sighed. "I'm not sure. I'd like to think yes but I don't know if she'll remember." I said with a frown.
I remember when I was shot in the chest how it felt to be unconscious. I could hear certain things but I also wasn't in a coma, so I guess we wouldn't know until she woke up.
Sam and Kat came back about an hour later with a couple pizzas and breadsticks. "Hey, Ki. If you can smell the pizza just ignore it." Kat said with a laugh as I leaned against Colby's shoulder. I was honestly starting to crash but I didn't want to go home so I tried to stay awake.
"V, you look exhausted." Sam said as he handed me a plate with a piece of pizza. "I'm not." I lied then grabbed the pizza and took a bite. "She was crisis baking all night." Colby explained as I zoned out.
"Crisis baking?" Kat asked as I nodded slowly. "I bake when I'm mental." I said and ate my pizza. "Oh. Well the cupcakes were good so I guess I gotta make you go mental more often." Kat said as I breathed a laugh. "Apparently it's easy to do." I said with a dry chuckle as I finished my pizza.
Once I was done eating I tossed my plate on the ground and leaned on Colby's shoulder. I could hear everyone talking but I was so out of it that they sounded so far away. I felt Colby shift slightly as he put a blanket over my legs.
It wasn't long until I was drifting off, finally letting myself rest.
