Jealous | Tommyinnit angst

50 ➪ Over the Edge.

"Why did they have to kill her off?!" I whined.

He continued to cry, I turned around. "Tommy.. A-are you alright?" I stumbled.

"N..no" He cried into his hands.

"Tommy its ok I promise... Is it the show?" I walked over to him, putting a hand on his shoulder.

He shook his head. "No.. it's not- not that."

"Can you tell me what?" I spoke calmly.

"I hate it.. I hate- I hate being.. r-reminded of his death.." He stumbled on so many words, his voice was choked.

"Who?.." I still didn't know who exactly died. And it would help if I did.

"Q-u.." He broke into more sobs and wails. I have to be patient.

"It's alright.." I comforted.

"Qua-Quackity.. He's gone. And it's all my fault." He croaked.

I felt my face go pale as a ghost. No way.. no. He isn't... I felt myself shaking a little. "I'm so sorr- sorry.." I gulped, trying to smile but failing. My expression probably changed drastically. by Tommy's face, I could tell.

"Ranboo- You're aloud t-to be sad.." He mumbled.

I don't have the energy, I'm tired. "I'm sorry I couldn't be of any help. I'm gonna go to my room." I stated coldly, Tommy looked concerned.

I moved into my small room. Spreading my body against the bed, I had so many questions.

"Why did he do it?"

"How did he do it?"

"Why."

"Is Tommy ok?"

"Am I.. Am I ok?"

"Why didn't I stop him?" I could've done something if I was there!! But of course I was just walking around Florida.. Boring.

"What should I even do to comfort Tommy?" I asked myself.

I then got up and dragged myself to the living room. Tommy was just on his phone, "Have you calmed down?" I asked.

"Yeah- Wait?! Are you alright??" He got up.

"I'm ok now. I just cannot believe he's gone." I looked down, feeling upset.

"It isn't your fault. More mine." Tommy stated.

"What? I know nothing about this but.. I know you wouldn't hurt him on purpose, you can't blame it on yourself." I rambled.

"But- .. But it was me! I made him do it!" Tommy mewled.

"Do what..?!"

"Kill himself! I was the entire reason." Tommy yelled, instantly covering his mouth.

"Tommy.. I." My face was pale again, I felt my heart drop and skip several beats. He killed himself?.. How was this Tommy's fault?

I walked over to the blonde boy and hugged him tightly. "I'm so.. I'm so sorry. I promise it isn't your fault no matter what just do- don't blame yourself.." I felt my eyes get teary.

He was just silently crying for a minute or two into my arms. "Thank you for being here.." He sputtered.

"I always will be." I smiled, he pulled out of the hug and sat down.

"I wish I could have atleast said goodbye." He sighed. I had empathy for him, but I just wonder how Sapnap and Karl are feeling.

Probably devastated. They were so close too..

"I just don't wanna talk about it anymore, let's watch something." He suggested.

"O-ok.." I was still amazed at that. Not in a good way.

The whole time we were watching the show, I couldn't stop thinking about Quackity.. I'll never get to see or talk to him again?.. He was so funny and kind. What really pushed him over the edge?