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Elia.
Nathaniel drives very far, like for about an hour. We talk random things as he drives us nowhere in particular, but avoid anything that will lead us talking of Xander or the incident. I'm glad- more than actually that Nathaniel has decided to forgive me. I thought we were going to be history, and that scared me a lot. But as for now, we're going no where in particular, and that makes me happy. I look over at him, to see his eyes set on the road with all of his concentration.
It's raining, and freaking cold. I'm just glad soon, winter will be over. I hate it, it's just dull and- so freaking cold.
"Who's our favorite artist?" I blink, processing Nathaniel's question. He doesn't look over at me though.
"Um- Freddy Mercury... I know he's dead but- I like him." I confess.
"You don't say!" he chuckles. "I do too... I even have Queen's posters in my room, but I'm not a huge fan though, I like Hozier... and um- Shawn Mendes."
"Which song do you like the most by Hozier?" I ask getting fascinated by his choice of artist.
"Someone New." He says. "You know it?"
"I only know Take me to church." I tell him. "How familiar are you with Freddy Mercury... you know his music?"
"Queen?" he coughs covering his mouth. "I like Killer queen, don't stop me now, um- bohemian rhapsody... yeah, and under pressure, those are all I know."
"Uh! You don't know I want it all, or bicycle race... okay, what about fat bottomed girls?"
"Fat bottomed girls?" he laughs.
"Yeah... fat bottomed girls."
"Why would Freddy Mercury sing of Fat bottomed girls?" he scoffs and stops by a red light.
"He was- Freddy... all he wanted was fat bottomed girls and dicks." The light turns green and Nathaniel steps the accelerator. "...he was a free spirit... so real. You know, he enjoyed life while he was alive. I admire that."
"I don't think so babe." I look over at Nathaniel. "He died a painful death, he might have enjoyed sex and performing, but I'm sure the fact that he was going to die of AIDS ate him up. If you saw the last years of his life, especially ninety- ninety eight, ninety nine he was so thin and sick." He states. "I guess no one really lives to the fullest." Nathaniel's knowledge takes me away. He is right, we will ever live lives to the fullest, there always will be something to take that from us.
"Anyways... hungry?" For you, yes I am.
Nathaniel comes back with a bag of junk food. He shivers as he settles in the car and turns the heater on. "It's cold out there."
I smile taking the bag from him. I take out some doritos and an apple juice. "It's winter bitch." I roll my eyes as I open the bag. Nathaniel goes for the muffin first, taking a huge bite that surprises me though I say nothing.
"You have any idea where we are?" I ask him. He looks at me and shrugs before he takes another huge bite o his muffin that is already half. "Nope, but I know the way home, don't worry."
I wasn't worrying, I just wanted to know. We don't talk for a couple minutes as we both eat.
"Are you going to eat that?" I laugh as Nathaniel points at my pie. "Yes... I am... Jeez, you eat a lot." I hand him the bag of chips and take "my" pie. I start on it taking small bites. Nathaniel's eyes are set outside. He seems to be thinking of something important. I would have asked what's wrong, but I'm afraid it's the issue between me and Xander.
Did I just break their friendship, that I don't know. What I know is I broke my friendship with Xander, I know I was wrong too, but if Xander didn't try to kiss me, all this wouldn't have happened. Suddenly I don't want the pie anymore, I stretch my hand toward Nathaniel. "Pie?"
"No thanks, I'm not hungry anymore." So, he has been thinking.
I sigh and sink into the seat eyes set on the small shop Nathaniel bought our food. I'm sure we are out of town, I have never seen this place before. When I look at Nathaniel again, he is looking at me.
"I'm not mad... we're fine okay?" of course he can tell I was thinking the same thing too. His assurance makes me nod, I don't want to talk about it, not now or ever. I want to pretend nothing happened. But it has, and I can't think otherwise now. I kissed Xander... I cheated my boyfriend with his best friend.
I look at the pie in my hand. I take a small bite, not wanting to waste it, but the honest truth is I don't want to eat it. I already feel sick in my stomach and I know eating some pie will only make it worse.
"It's getting dark." Nathaniel passively says. "I don't want to go home."
"Let's not go then..." I whisper back. "We don't have to."
"I know- but my dad wouldn't allow that."
"What if you tell him you'll be spending the night at my house?"
"I don't know. He'll think we'll have unprotected sex and get pregnant, let's just go. Do you want to?"
I shake my head no. I don't want to go home, I never want to go home... I wouldn't care sleeping in this car as long as Nathaniel is here with me. "I never want to go home."
"We'll do this some other time... maybe a road trip?"
A smile forces it's way to my lips, I would love to go on a road trip with Nathaniel. just the two of us, God knows to where.
"Yeah, I'd love that."
"Where to?"
"My g-pa has a cabin somewhere, I've heard him talk about it... maybe, maybe I can ask him, and we'll go there for a weekend?" I ask unsure if he likes the idea. His eyes widens as he looks at me amused.
"I can't believe we didn't do that long ago, that sounds fun!" I smile my cheeks reddening. I really want this trip with Nathaniel, alone. Maybe stuff will happen there, stuff like- ahem- sex? This is a topic I have been trying to avoid for a long time now. I don't know if people in relationships talks about sex and plan when or how they will do it, or do they just do it, like straight away? I don't thing Nathaniel and I have talked about something sex related, we have, but not like about 'us' having sex and all. The blow jobs were not planned, they just happened and they were good. Maybe that is what is going to happen. Just kissing and then bam! He is fucking me into the mattress.
Wait- what!?
I need Jesus right now!
"What do you want to do during new years?" he asks starting the car. What do I want? It's clear, all I want is him. But how can tell him, should I go like... 'Hey Nathaniel, pull your pants let me suck you off?' or should I just do it? Or should I just tell him. Look, we are boyfriends, and there is no one I should be having conversations like these with, boyfriends should be honest and open with each other right.
"You?" I confess. I then look out through the window next to me, and pretend as if I didn't say anything. I feel Nathaniel's eyes on me and my cheeks reddening.
"Huh?"
"I said I want to do you." I speak loudly, but keep my eyes on the window. Nathaniel doesn't ay anything, but I know he has heard me, and I know he didn't ignore me.
About thirty minutes of silence, awkward silence, I start to debate with myself. Did he or did he not hear that I want him? Is he ignoring me? Or is he taking it literally that we'll 'play' towards midnight. If that's what he is willing to do I don't want it then. Like entering a new year while hitting your orgasm, that'll male the whole year less productive and more sexful.
It's now dark, and the ride is starting to get boring. Nathaniel pulls off by a gas station to get gas. After that he drives across the station across the road where there are a few cars passing here and there and he stops the car.
I look over at him as he undoes the seat belt sighing as he melts into the seat. "I'm tired." He states.
"Want me to drive?" I can help if he's tired. I guess we're now about an hour to home.
"Nope, lets sit here... till tomorrow." He says. "Let's just talk."
"About?"'
"I don't know, what do you see yourself as next year this time?" I don't hesitate to answer him. "Happy, getting ready for college... independent."
"Wow, that's a lot." He chuckles. "Are you not happy now?"
I gulp looking at him. Am I happy? Of course, I am, but- not as much as I'm supposed to be. I still think of a lot of things, and hopefully next year I'd be better. "I just miss my mom, and wish I lived with anyone but my g-parents."
"I'm starting to think you hate your grandparents." He laughs.
"I don't, but they pity me and they- are the opposite of what them to be."
"What do you want them to be Elia?"
"Maybe- I want them to be- just less pitiful." Nathaniel doesn't ask anything else.
"Want me to get you something to eat by the gas station?" "I'm not hungry."
Silence falls among us again, but this time less awkward. I look at Nathaniel who is looking down on his phone scrolling on something. The screen light is flashing his face giving him an angelic look. Lips are slightly part and eye in deep concentration. It's a shame I don't get to see his green eyes often, I love them, and I feel as if they are cool. I unbuckle my seat belt, hesitating my next actions. It takes time for me to move my hand to take Nathaniel's phone. He just looks at me blankly.
Smut Warning!!!
I lean in pulling him by his neck until our faces are so close. I stick my tongue out and lick his bottom lip first before I proceed to his upper lip. My eyes never leave his', I lick him again and he draws closer to crash his lips with mine, instantly taking dominance.
I must say, Nathaniel has never taken such dominance like this, it's always I who did so, but it's different tonight. He explores my whole mouth, my tongue, my teeth my gums. His hand makes its way to my chest, and pinches my nipple through my fluffy pajama. I gasp in his mouth as he pinches hard, then harder that it hurts and I can't contain it. I pull back, to see his eyes stare at me. His stare makes me shiver.
I guess I've unleashed a monster.
"Get to the back."
In haste, I open the door and close it with a sigh. I bite my bottom lip, a smile forcing on my lips as I lean in the door running my hand into my hair. I turn and open the back door, sliding in in a second. Nathaniel is already seated running his hand in his hair.
I close the door, and lock it, pushing myself to Nathaniel and crashing my lips onto his. My hands waste no time before they are undoing his belt. He moans into the kiss as I pull the belt off and go on to work on his button.
"Wait, push back." He instructs after he pulls off. I do so until my back hits the door behind me. Nathaniel then lays on the seat on back. I smile, and do all I can to be on top of him since there is much space. I straddle him as I kiss him roughly, he still manages to gain his dominance back.
I pull out for air, both of us panting. I can feel myself harden and it forces me to look down at Nathaniel's groin. His erection his visible through his jeans. I subconsciously lick my lip, and realize when Nathaniel chuckles to my action.
"Needy huh?"
"Says the guy whose as hard as a rock." I lean down and kiss his jaw, lowering to his neck. He moans when I find his sweet spot, I lick, bite then lick again. He shivers under me, his hands moving to squeeze my ass hard. I suck on his neck, wanting to leave as many marks as I can, he is mine, and everyone should know that.
Nathaniel moves his hands to the zipper on my front to undo the pajama, ugh! Why did I have to wear this!? He undoes the zipper from my collar bone where it starts down to my waist. I remove the whole of it, shivering as I feel a bit cold. I remove the whole of it awkwardly because of lack of space. I'm only in my boxers now. I look down at Nathaniel and gasp, his jeans are halfway his thighs. He his palming himself through his boxers. He smirks lazily when I look up his face. I help him remove the rest of his jeans and throw them on the driver's seat.
I can't believe we are doing this in the car, across the road. At least his windows are tinted, not bad huh?
My thoughts are washed away as Nathaniel slips his hand inside my boxers from the bottom of it on my left leg. His warm hands get in contact with my dick, I moan throwing my head back, "Mhh."
But his hand doesn't last as long as I want it to. He pulls it off and hold me by the waist. He manages to flips us, making me the one on the bottom. I shut my eyes as I feel pressure transport to my erection. Jesus! I would like to do this every second of my life.
Nathaniel presses his hips against mine, grinding our dicks together. I gasp, buckling my hips up to increase the pressure. "I'm in control El, don't move." He demands dominantly. Hm, I think I like this side of Nathaniel. I try to contain myself, as he keeps on grinding his hips onto mine. I moan loud, my body acting on its own accord as they buckle up.
"Naughty." Nathaniel states going on all fours leaving my pathetic body. "No please- come." I wrap my arms around neck. He pulls away instantly. "You want this?"
"Yeah."
"Then do as I say, don't move, give me your hands." I do so, he smirks holding them with one hand and pulling them above my head pressed on the door. This is getting interesting.
He positions himself between my legs, lowering himself to continue to grind on me. The way I want to trace his body with my hands it tempting. Every time I try to escape from his grip, he tightens more. I even start to whimper and beg under him, but I don't want him to stop or let go of my hands. This is what I want, to be used and be controlled by him, there is nothing more I can ask for.
My toes curl as my back arcs lifting my hips up to grind too. Nathaniel doesn't protest but rather groans as he presses harder and harder. Shit! This is ecstatic.
"Uh, Nate." I cry when I feel this is agonizing. He must be feeling it too because he straddles me removing his shirt with his head hang low to fit in this confining car, wanna know what else is confining me? My briefs. I whimper as my hands fall to my chest.
"Remo-"
"Shh El." He shushes me though removing his boxers. His dick springs out already leaking pre-cum. "Here." I pull my hips up and he pulls my boxers to my knees. I kick until they are off my right leg and leave them hanging on my right one.
I wait for Nathaniel to lower himself to my dick, but he doesn't. Instead, he looks deep into my eyes and raise my legs putting them on his shoulder. Oh God. I feel so self-conscious. I know I did bathe myself and all, but being open wide like this in front him is- embarrassing. Is he going to- to fuck me? Oh God! He is isn't he? Our eyes don't leave each other's as he shifts close. I'm sure I start to panic, we're going to have sex? In a car? Wait- now? we're going to have sex now? Am I cle-
"Calm down... I'm not going to do anything you don't want me to okay?" That's the problem, I want to. I want him to take me now and here... right here. In his car. That every time he will be seating in here he will think of the time he shamelessly broke my virginity.
Without thinking, my hand slides to my dick. I start to slowly stroke myself as I wait for him to do what he wants to do with me. I close my eyes, waiting for anything, embracing myself for anything, but nothing comes. I open my eyes to see Nathaniel's eyes closed his mouth partly open as he strokes himself too.
Holy! He looks so hot. My hand starts to move faster as I curl my toes and release short low moans. Pre-cum starts to slide down my hand, making movement become easier and more slippery. I move my other hand to his chest and rest my hand there. His other hand grips the hand on his chest.
"Uh!" Nathaniel's hand shakes whilst holding my wrist. That pushes me to another level. When I open my eyes the first thing I see is his head thrown back his body shaking. I feel my high start to hit me. My eyes roll back.
"I'm close." He whispers opening his eyes to look at me. I immediately leave my erection and removes his hand on his. His eyes widen when I touch his dick. "Lower yourself a bit." He instantly does. I use one hand to grab both his' and my dick, and I start to stroke both of them.
Feeling his dick on mine takes me to another world. I open my mouth to let sounds and words I can't comprehend leave my mouth. I feel something wet brush on my lip, it doesn't take time for me to pull mu tongue out. It meets Nathaniel's before he pushes down to capture the whole of me.
I don't even realize how my hand has turned flash on stroking both of us. Both of Nathaniel's hands are either sides of me, seeking balance. A bottle of butterflies escape in my lower torso, my toes curl more as if possible as both my legs vigorously start to shake. "Nate- Ugh! I'm- ah" I cry my hand feeling tired and weak. But Nathaniel feels it, and his hand hurries to capture mine, pressing harder and continues to stroke us. I tighten every muscle, not wanting to cum alone, I want to cum with Nathaniel. But my body starts to resists. I slide my hand from Nathaniel and down it to our balls brushing each other. I start to pump them, getting a loud cry from Nathaniel.
And that was a bad move, my body jerks upwards as my eyes roll back. Both my hands fly in the now thick air gripping mothing, before they fall on Nathaniel's shoulder and digging my short nails there. My orgasm hits me hard as I cry out nothing in particular. Semen erupts from my body, so much and watery since I have been masturbating a lot the past few days ever since I tasted Nathaniel's cum.
But Nathaniel doesn't stop stroking the both of us, and it starts to feel too much. "Nate- uh! No!" I cry both hands moving to his', but his other hand takes both my hands pulling them up my head. I feel myself being driven to over sensitivity, post cum torture actually, as I feel every organ in my body start to react... My back arcs violently, probably pulling a muscle. I cry, as real tears start to escape my eyes. My legs finally give in and my cries getting lower and lower, he's going to kill me.
"Plea- dude! Na- Ah!!!" I cry as if I am choking out. Nathaniel's hand speeds up. His own body start to violently shake, probably reaching his own high. It feels as if another orgasm is approaching, but very and agonizingly slow. It feels as if someone is tickling my whole body and inducing some pain at the same time. I try to pull from Nathaniel's hand, but he is so stronger than me. I start to feel my body get dangerously tired, that's when I hear him cry my name out, releasing on my stomach and chest, falling on top of me, his whole weight resting on me. His hand, which happens to be in between us manages to slowly move.
I start to whimper, cry and moan, then the unexpected happens. I gasp, another orgasm hitting me, but not without making me literally scream. Nathaniel immediately straddles me, "Shit, you're okay?" his horsey voice sounds as if from a distance. I scrunch my face, feeling less and watery cum leave my body once more. Holy fuck!
"Hmm." Although I was scared, and felt it too too much, I know that was worth it! The orgasm is painful, not pain pain, but pain if you what I mean. My feet finally relax, so does every muscle in my body, but not without giving off some spasms. Cleary the best two orgasms of my entire life. Something I would like to try again, at the same time afraid to.
"Hey, you're alright?" I open my eyes, to meet a very sweaty Nathaniel on top of me. I don't even know how we're in this position. My waist is resting on Nathaniel's thigh... were we not- huh? Oh...
"Why di you do that?" that's the first thing that penetrates into my head after almost first minutes of total silence. I guess we were both getting from our high- actually- I know that is what we were doing.
"That's what you get for coming without my permission." I snort, looking at him disbelief on my face.
"We're now kinky eh?"
"Whatever you call it." he smirks, "put on your cloth- pajama." I try to process his first answer. I really wouldn't mind a bit of kink and all. "C'mon, we gotta."
"Let's lay for a bit, I'm exhausted." I and about to turn to lay on my stomach, but I look over my chest to see a whole lot of cum, and by a lot, I mean a lot.
"I'll fix that." Nathaniel's eyes lock with mine, before he lowers himself to my stomach. I watch him lick my lower abdomen, up to my chest and part of my neck, licking all the cum off me. Within a minute he lips meet mine, mixing all the cum in our mouths.
This is a good way to end the year.
He pulls out and look at me seductively. "Want anything?"
"Open the window... I don't like the smell of semen."
This is one long chapter!!! Sorry for that. But guys, do you know how difficult it is to write smut!? Anyways, i have been looking for great bxb movies, please inform me some of the best... I've watched Call Me By Your Name, Love Simon, Center of my heart, Closet Monster and Being Seventeen... i forgot the rest... please let me know.
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