Chapter 61 I have promised your pursuit.
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Xu Xishuang knew very well that he was dreaming.
He saw a person who looked very similar to him, but the other party lived a completely different life from him. He didn't know who the other party was. He wanted to walk over and say hello to him, but he found that he could not move and could only stand still, just like a hazy fog, forced to watch the other party's life, from birth to death.
During this period, he occasionally heard some outside voices, but they were vague and unclear who was talking.
"Why haven't you woken up yet? All physical indicators are normal, which is so strange..."
"He will wake up. You must hold on."
"The exclusion reaction... The fetus is very healthy..."
Xu Xishuang turned his eyes. When he saw the person opposite the fog swallowing almost a whole bottle of sleeping pills and holding the mirror in the bathroom weakly, Xu Xishuang's chaotic brain seemed to be suddenly pricked by a needle, and the pain suddenly made him wake up.
He wore the book, and he became the sender in the book. He changed some plots. The protagonist fell in love with others. He was in a coma in the hut in the forest, right in front of Yan Yushan.
Everything just now should be the belated memory of the original body.
Where is he now, in the hospital? Because Chi Siyuan is with others, the plot is too bad, so is he also affected?
...Is he still alive?
The fog in front of him suddenly dissipated. Xu Xishuang looked up and saw the original body on the opposite side slowly walking towards him. Xu Xishuang moved his legs and found that he could also move, and subconsciously walked towards the other party.
They stopped at the same time, and Xu Xishuang smiled at him when he saw the person opposite him.
The other party didn't say anything, but just looked at him with gentle and sad eyes. Xu Xishuang felt that he understood what the other party meant and whispered, "It doesn't matter."
As soon as he was born with strange diseases, he became a burden to the family when he grew up. His parents died unexpectedly. In order to reduce the burden on his grandparents, he took the initiative to drop out of school and enter the entertainment industry to film. Until his grandparents also died, he still could not find a cure for his disease.
Every day, I drag my broken body to live. Every day is more desperate than yesterday. I have no relatives and friends. Because of the exclusion of the world, I am also excluded from the world. I don't know how long I can live and when I will die. I just take the initiative to end my life with a bottle of medicine.
He didn't expect to involve Xu Xishuang. He hated the injustice of fate, but he didn't want to let others bear his illness. He felt very guilty and wanted to apologize to Xu Xishuang, but he didn't know where to start.
Xu Xishuang was not sure whether the person in front of him was the remnant consciousness of the original body or the phantom he conceived in his brain, but he still said seriously, "It doesn't matter, it's not your fault."
"I've also died once." Xu Xishuang squeezed her lips and said, "It's lucky for me to be reborn in this world and get a second life."
He blinked his eyes and decided to tell a harmless little lie: "And I have found a cure. I will try my best to live for a long time. You don't have to feel guilty."
Xu Xishuang saw the person opposite slightly raising the corners of his mouth and then smiled. He was about to continue to say something. A strong sense of weightlessness came, and his eyes instantly turned into darkness.
Opening his eyes again, Xu Xishuang saw the familiar ceiling of the hospital.
Dr. Xu, who stood next to him to change the hanging bottle, didn't expect that he would suddenly wake up. He was stunned for a few seconds, and then calmly took out his mobile phone and sent a message to the person on the other end of the phone.
Xu Xishuang moved his fingers and found that he was sore and weak all over, so he didn't try to sit up. He squeezed his lower lip and found that his lips were moist. Someone should have moistened his lips with a cotton swab with water. His throat was not dry, and he could barely speak normally.
Dr. Xu also knew this. After sending the message, he put away his mobile phone, sat down on the chair next to Xu Xishuang's bed, took out the medical record, and asked Xu Xishuang, "How do you feel? How are you doing?"
Xu Xishuang felt that this was a little familiar. He answered truthfully and said in a slightly hoarse voice: "It doesn't feel good."
He felt sore and weak all over, and his brain was like being pricked by a needle. He didn't even have the strength to lean his head. He could only continue to stare at the ceiling and answer Dr. Xu's question.
Dr. Xu denied his words again: "No, you're fine."
Xu Xishuang:?
"Do you remember that you vomited a mouthful of blood before you fell into a coma?" Dr. Xu said, "That mouthful of blood is really amazing... Just like the plot of detoxification in martial arts novels, that mouthful of serum has cured your disease except for all the toxins in your body. All the indicators of your body are normal now. Of course, the child in your belly is also very healthy and has not been affected at all. "
Xu Xishuang: ...?
"During your coma, my tutor, Professor Fred, also came here to check your previous cases and checked your body for you." Dr. Xu looked at Xu Xishuang's blank and shocked expression and continued to explain, "After intense discussion, we think we have found the reason why you have been in poor health before."
Xu Xishuang's heartbeat accelerated slightly. He closed his slightly dry eyes and asked hoarsely, "What's the reason?"
Dr. Xu: "You and your body have a serious special rejection reaction."
In fact, so far, Dr. Xu is not willing to believe this result, because Xu Xishuang's organs have no traces of transplantation. The original, such as fake replacement, how can Xu Xishuang have a rejection reaction to his body? This is impossible.
But the fact is in front of us. It is because of this special rejection reaction that Xu Xishuang's body organs have been not cooperating, and there is no way to use part of the normal organ functions, but it can maintain Xu Xishuang's basic survival. The combination of various complex symptoms has caused Xu Xishuang's weak and strange physique, and from Random vomiting that has never been seen before.
At first, Dr. Xu disagreed with Professor Fred's diagnosis, which was contrary to what he had been learning. However, when he thought that Xu Xishuang could have a child, he felt that there were all strangeness in the world. This special rejection reaction happened to Xu Xishuang, which was strange and reasonable, so he finally accepted the result. , and told Xu Xishuang.
"Just during your coma, your rejection suddenly disappeared." Dr. Xu frowned, "I haven't found the diagnosis for the time being. My tutor, Professor Fred, has a conjecture..."
Dr. Xu recalled Mr. Fred's words--
"The human brain is a very magical creation. If a person does not admit that he exists in this world and thinks that he is not himself, it may be possible for him to reject himself."
Dr. Xu was skeptical of this sentence like a tongue twister, and did not believe that there was no scientific evidence of the conjecture, but this passage hit Xu Xishuang's head like a heavy hammer, and his eyes were dizzy and his body trembled slightly.
Dr. Xu suddenly became nervous: "What's the matter? What's wrong with you?"
"...I'm fine." Xu Xishuang took a long breath, opened his eyes again, and repeated, "I'm fine. I'm fine."
He felt that his strength was recovering.
"I also think you are in good condition now." Dr. Xu nodded in agreement. He looked at his mobile phone and said to Xu Xishuang, "Your agent is coming to see you. Do you want to see him?"
Xu Xishuang: "Well, I'd like to see you."
Watching Dr. Xu get up, he was about to walk to the door of the room. When he pushed the door and left, Xu Xishuang still didn't hold back. He moved his finger again and asked Dr. Xu, "Where's Yan Yushan?"
Dr. Xu's push of the door paused. He turned around and answered Xu Xishuang with his hands in his pockets: "Mr. Yan has been taking care of you for a week in your coma. I just told him that you were awake, and Mr. Yan said that he would come to see you when you meet other people who come to visit.
Xu Xishuang watched the door of the ward being closed and couldn't tell how he was feeling now.
He wanted to see Yan Yushan, but he was afraid to see Yan Yushan, but when Yan Yushan didn't come to see him for the first time, he felt very frustrated.
Xu Xishuang lay quietly in ** for a while, recalling what Dr. Xu had just said, and felt that he had regained some strength. Hearing the sound of opening the door again, he turned his head and saw the red-eyed agent Sister Zhao.
Sister Zhao didn't know about Xu Xishuang's pregnancy. She had been treating Xu Xishuang as her younger brother. Knowing that something happened to Xu Xishuang on the program, she had been worried after she fell into a coma in the hospital. She hasn't slept well these days. Now that Xu Xishuang is doing well, she is finally relieved.
"Don't participate in the program anymore. Take care of yourself first." Sister Zhao said with red eyes, "I'll figure out about the liquidated damages of that program..."
She is really afraid that Xu Xishuang will participate in the program again, and the people will be gone. Xu Xishuang's health is not good. In the past, she had to take a break for more than half a year to shoot a play. Now she has made two plays in a row, and then participates in a variety show. How can there be nothing wrong with her body?
It's all her fault. She shouldn't believe Xu Xishuang's easy lie about this travel variety show. She should persuade Xu Xishuang. She doesn't care about the relationship between Xu Xishuang and Yan Yushan now. No matter how many hot searches he is on, no matter how much public relations he needs, she doesn't care now. As long as Xu Xishuang is still alive, nothing else matters.
"I'm fine, Sister Zhao." Xu Xishuang smiled at her and said, "My body is better. I'm sorry to worry you. You don't believe that you can ask the doctor. My health will get better and better. There is no problem participating in the program.
Sister Zhao stared at Xu Xishuang for a while and knew that Xu Xishuang had made up her mind to continue to participate in the travel variety show. In fact, she had learned from the doctor that Xu Xishuang's health was getting better. She knew that she had never been able to persuade Xu Xishuang, so she could only tell her, "Then you must pay attention to safety and don't leave Yan Yushan."
After not hearing Xu Xishuang's response, Sister Zhao frowned: "Yang Yushan is now the best person to protect you. Thanks to his care this time, and don't you also like Yan Yushan?"
Xu Xishuang was so shocked that he almost sat up from ** and rarely stammered: "You..."
"You want to ask me how I know, right?" Sister Zhao crossed her legs and said, "As for your cold attitude towards others, if you don't like Yan Yushan, will you talk to him? Will you let him into your room? Will you blush at him?
Sister Zhao will take it when she sees it, so as not to say too much Xu Xishuang. She finally sighed, "If you want to go, just go. As long as you are fine. I'm leaving. I wish you a speedy recovery and discharge."
Xu Xishuang's stiff back relaxed: "Well, thank you, Sister Zhao. Goodbye."
Watching the agent Sister Zhao leave the room, Xu Xishuang just thought about when Yan Yushan would come, and he heard a knock on the door again.
Xu Xishuang was nervous for a moment. She slowly sat up, leaned against the head of the bed, raised her hand from the quilt, tidied up her sleepy hair, and then touched her face without a depression. Then she said to the person outside the door, "Come in."
Chi Siyuan immediately rushed in from outside the door, lay on Xu Xishuang's bedside, and looked at him with tears in his eyes: "Senior! I'm so worried about you!"
The person who came was not Yan Yushan. Xu Xishuang was stunned for a second: "Well, I'm fine. Don't worry."
He looked up at the man who followed Chi Siyuan. His hair was half-long to his shoulder. It was Song Yao.
Thinking of the current relationship between Chi Siyuan and Song Yao, Xu Xishuang blinked and watched Song Yao come over. Song Yao looked at each other for a short time. He soon lowered his head, grabbed Chi Siyuan, who was lying on the edge of his bed, and then put his hand on Chi Siyuan's shoulder. He put his hand on Chi Siyuan's shoulder. He said to Chi Siyuan, "The doctor said, "Senior Xu is going to rest now and can't quarrel."
Chi Siyuan immediately covered his mouth and looked at Xu Xishuang with his round puppy eyes. He let go of his hand slightly and whispered to Xu Xishuang, "Senior, does your illness have anything to do with me?"
"No," Xu Xishuang said immediately, "Don't think about it."
Chi Siyuan immediately believed it, and then relaxed. He was almost guilty these days, for fear that his sudden coming out of the closet would stimulate Xu Xishuang, which made Xu Xishuang have mood swings, and then affected his physical condition.
Song Yao suddenly said, "Yuanyuan, I forgot the gift you brought to Senior Xu."
Chi Siyuan stared and immediately got up and ran to the garage: "I'll be right back!"
There were only two people left in the ward, Xu Xishuang and Song Yao. Xu Xishuang looked at Song Yao. He knew very well that what Song Yao just said was to open Chi Siyuan.
Sure enough, as soon as Chi Siyuan left, Song Yao changed his posture. He looked at Xu Xishuang and said bluntly, "Your illness has something to do with Chi Siyuan. You can deceive him stupidly, and you can't deceive me."
Xu Xishuang didn't say anything.
"I think it's strange between you and Yan Yushan." Without Xu Xishuang's answer, Song Yao didn't care. He said to himself, "You obviously like each other, and no one likes him less than anyone else, but you have been rejecting him."
Song Yao smiled and said, "You don't have to be nervous. Isn't it well known that Yan Yushan likes you? It's easy for others to see that you like Yan Yushan... Well, I swear that what I said to you today will never tell the second person, and neither will Chi Siyuan."
"You may not know how much Chi Siyuan respects you, and the chick complex..." Song Yao showed a headache expression, "He regarded this feeling as □□慕 from the beginning. In order to reverse his concept, I took a lot of effort to make him understand that it was different from liking. Anyway, if you speak ill of me in front of that little fool, he will definitely believe you more than I believe me.
Song Yao turned around and said, "So at the beginning, I looked at you like a rival in love, just like you look at Chi Siyuan like a rival in love."
Xu Xishuang turned his head slightly to avoid Song Yao's sight.
For a long time, he exhaled, looked up at Song Yao, and admitted calmly, "Yes."
Song Yao showed a clear look: "Then you can rest assured now. Yuanyuan likes me now. He is with me, and I will never give others a chance."
Since Song Yao knows it, there is no need to hide it. Xu Xishuang relaxed his body. Perhaps he felt that Song Yao saw it too thoroughly. He suddenly wanted to ask Song Yao a question: "If... if you know, the person you like will fall in love and marry another person in the future and accompany him for a lifetime, and everyone else feels that they are a good match. They are a natural match, then you will still be with him now. Together?"
Song Yao was silent for a few seconds.
He raised his eyebrows inconceivably: "Isn't the future thing not happening yet? How can you be sure that these things will happen? How can you be sure that the person you like will like someone else? Do you care what others say about the right or not?
"Like is exclusive desire, devouring desire, selfish, sometimes even despicable, not beautiful at all, ugly." Song Yao looked directly at Xu Xishuang, "Don't blame me for speaking badly. Xu Xishuang, give up the person you like for a rival who may not exist in the future. Are you a fool or a virgin? Xu Xishuang, is your moral standard a little too high? Is it necessary to be so harsh on yourself?"
Song Yao is a screenwriter and a famous screenwriter. He writes about all kinds of life. He can easily see that Xu Xishuang is like a little prince raised by a rich and harmonious family. He is polite and eduated. Because he can get anything from childhood to old age, he disdains to compete with others. He is particularly noble and noble.
It's completely different from people like him who fought all the way from the slums.
Song Yao doesn't hate people like Xu Xishuang. Such people are very suitable for friends, but this does not prevent him from following Xu Xishuang's awkwardness, shortcomings and pain, so that Xu Xishuang can wake up.
"If you like it, grab it and fight for it. Can't the future be changed?" Song Yao calmed down, "Of course, that's all. If you still make up your mind to regret it, then I can't help it."
After saying this, Song Yao kept silent and let Xu Xishuang digest it by himself.
Before long, Chi Siyuan rushed into the ward with gifts in his arms and put flowers and fruit baskets at the head of Xu Xishuang's bed.
Xu Xishuang smiled at him: "Thank you."
"You're welcome." Chi Siyuan giggled.
Chi Siyuan also wanted to talk to Xu Xishuang for a while. Song Yao sensed his intention and hooked his neck with one hand: "Elder Xu is very tired now. He wants to rest, so let's not disturb him."
Chi Siyuan directly believed: "Oh, senior, have a good rest, and we'll go first."
Xu Xishuang: ...
Xu Xishuang looked at Song Yao lying without drafting, and even his eyebrows did not move, as if he understood what Song Yao said "like".
After Chi Siyuan and Song Yao left, Xu Xishuang leaned against the soft pillow at the head of the bed, casually took an apple in his hand and played with it, recalling the conversation with Song Yao just now.
Knocking on the door again, Xu Xishuang casually said, "Come in."
The person who came in this time didn't say anything. The footsteps were calm and familiar, which was the voice he would hear every night. Xu Xishuang suddenly realized something, and his heartbeat accelerated little by little with the other party's footsteps, and slowly turned his head.
Because of a week of care, Yan Yushan lost a little weight, and there was no time to shave the stubble on his chin. He was wearing a black coat, and his whole body was immersed in a gloom.
His eyes floated past the apples in Xu Xishuang's hand, and he glanced at the fruit basket and flowers at the head of the bed. He knew clearly who brought it, and the dullness on his body seemed to be one more point.
Xu Xishuang held the apple, and the way Yan Yushan didn't talk now made him very uneasy. He took the initiative to say, "Thank you for your care these days. I'm fine..."
"Do you like Chi Siyuan so much?" Yan Yushan suddenly interrupted Xu Xishuang's words.
As soon as he said the words, Yan Yushan knew that things would become irreparable, but he couldn't help it. He had been extremely painful for the past seven days, and his emotions had piled up to the gate. When he saw the apple given by Chi Siyuan in Xu Xishuang's hand, he could no longer bear it.
Thinking that Xu Xishuang may have fainted because he was too sad to hear the news that Chi Siyuan was with others. Thinking that Xu Xishuang always avoided his love was because he had fallen in love with another person, Yan Yushan's jealousy and sore overflowed.
The malice that can't be loved is being sprayed. Yan Yushan can't help saying, "But he is now with others, and you don't have a chance."
Xu Xishuang held the apple blankly and in shock. He didn't understand why Yan Yushan suddenly said such a thing.
Xu Xishuang's performance deeply stung Yan Yushan's heart. He closed his eyes. Because it was too painful, he woke up a little and said in a difficult tone, "Don't like Chi Siyuan..."
Like me, I'm definitely better than Chi Siyuan.
However, he couldn't say what he said later.
"What are you talking about? I have never liked Chi Siyuan. Xu Xishuang quickly interrupted Yan Yushan. He frowned, "I told you..."
Wait, Xu Xishuang remembered.
"...I told you that on your birthday, the night you were drunk." Xu Xishuang looked at Yan Yushan with a stunned expression and said, "You asked me if I like Chi Siyuan's type of man. I answered that you said no. I don't like him."
Then the next day, after Yan Yushan woke up, he forgot.
Xu Xishuang was angry and funny, and a little speechless. Yan Yushan has been jealous these days, and he is still unnecessary jealous. If Yan Yushan hadn't suddenly said it, he really didn't know that Yan Yushan was also using Chi Siyuan as a rival in love.
What's the matter?
Xu Xishuang looked at Yan Yushan's face, and it was a little painful, and his inner decision was firmer. He put the apple that Yan Yushan wanted to dismember on the bedside table, reached out and pulled Yan Yushan's coat, let him stand closer, and asked him directly, "Does it count what you said you wanted to pursue me before?"
Before Yan Yushan recovered from Xu Xishuang's words, he reacted and nodded "um".
Xu Xishuang doesn't like Chi Siyuan? Really?
"Even if I may die on the operating table to have a baby, there may be no future," Xu Xishuang paused, but still summoned up the courage to hold Yan Yushan's hand. "Do you still want to be with me?"
Xu Xishuang's fingers were slightly cold. Yan Yushan subconsciously held him back. He lowered his head and looked at Xu Xishuang with serious eyes. An idea in his heart was sprouting rapidly, his heartbeat was accelerating, and jealousy and soreness temporarily disappeared and were replaced by tension.
Yan Yushan's throat knot moved, and he replied seriously in a hoarse voice, "Yes."
Even if it's only one day, he wants to be with Xu Xishuang, and he won't let Xu Xishuang die on the operating table, absolutely.
"Well," Xu Xishuang's face burned. He received many confessions, which were rejected by him indifferently and politely, but this was the first time he confessed to others. It turned out that the heartbeat could really be deafening. It turned out that there was really a feeling in this world that could make people feel sweet and happy without eating dessert.
"I like you too."
Xu Xishuang held Yan Yushan's hand tighter and tighter, and his voice became smaller and smaller: "I promised your pursuit."
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Xu Xishuang: Straight ball counterattack.