Love or Fame?

Hotel Thoughts 2: Never Say Never

Thank you for all the birthday love! The celebration still goes on. It's still my birthday month! But since Lyric is writing the next chapter for In Love With A Fugitive, I decided to write another chapter for this one! I'll do that from now on when it's her turn :). Thank you everyone who went to read it! I seriously LOVE that story. That one and Deadly Attraction are definitely my favorites, and Forever and Always will always be my #1 favorite since that was my very first story and a lot if people loved it. My other stories are on twitter though! Anyway, here's chapter 123!...I think...lol! Don't forget comments. HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY btw!

One ring. Two rings. Three rings. She stared at the phone as it rang and I sat there annoyed at the fact that he was even calling. "You gonna answer that? Or you want me to answer that," I asked. She looked up at me, then looked down at the phone. "Why does anyone have to answer it?" She pressed ignore and went back to eating her pickles. It went quiet for a while until I spoke. "Can I ask you something?" She looked at me and saw that I was being serious now. After putting down her jar, she turned to face me. "What's up?" I took a few seconds, but finally spoke up. "Are you...is this just...are you just ignoring him...giving him the silent treatment for a while. Or is this it? Are you gonna..." I didn't know how to ask her this. I didn't want it to seem like I was asking for me instead of for her. I just want her to be safe. "Are you asking if I'm going back to him," she finally asked taking the words right out of my mouth. "...yeah," I replied. She took a deep breath. Before she could say anything else, I spoke. "But I don't want you to think that I'm asking for me. I just want you and the baby to be safe. This has nothing to do with how I feel about you, I swear. I know that I had my chances and blew it and you're never coming back to me. I'm just asking for your safety." She nodded. "Okay. Well, to be honest...I don't know what I'm gonna do. I mean, we didn't really...break up, really. We just had an argument, & he left. That's it. I guess I just still need to talk to him about all this, just not right now." It went silent again. "One more thing," she said as she got up. "What's that," I asked. "Never say never." With that being said, she turned away and headed to the bathroom. "Never say never?" Was that some type of sign? Or was she just saying that? I thought about that. "Hmm." Guess we'll just see in time.

*two hours later*

Lexi and I stayed up watching movies, talking and laughing until I noticed her dozing off. I asked if she wanted me to go to the other room I got so she could sleep, but she shook her head. "No you're good," she replied. "You sure? You need rest," I said. She opened her eyes and spoke again. "Just because you're here doesn't mean I won't get rest," she said. I nodded. "You're right, but-" she moved closer to me and rested her head on my chest. "But nothing. You're staying & that's final," she said. I laughed a little. "Okay, okay. I'm staying. Goodnight." "Goodnight." I put my arm around her and continued watching the movie until we both eventually fell asleep.

"No, Haven...because I don't wanna come back...where am I?...I'm in a safe place. That's all you need to know." I woke up to Lexi talking on the phone and the bright ass sun shining in my face. As I stretched, she turned around to face me. She was standing in the middle of the room trying not to talk too loud. "You don't need to know who I'm w-...don't raise your damn voice at me. Yes, Haven, I'm with Diggy. That's none of you're business...okay, listen to me. I'm with Diggy. I'm in a safe place. That's all you need to know. Okay? Now don't call me anymore. I'm done talking to you and listening to your crap." With that, she hung up. "Hey," she said waking back to the bed. "Hey," I replied. "Did I wake you up? I'm sorry. I tried not to-" "no you didn't." "So, what's the plan for today?" "I don't know. What do you wanna do? I mean, we can't leave the hotel so...that kills the vibe." She laughed. "No lie. I know what we could do!"

*two hours later*

"Okay, Lexi it's your turn," Spin yelled. It was me, Lexi, Spin, Rina and Roger in the hotel room having our own little party. We were taking turns either rapping or singing some random shit messing with each other or people we don't like. "Okay, but this isn't a diss to anyone. I wrote this song a while ago and I didn't drop it. No one has ever heard this. This is a new side of Alex Ventura that no one except Ri has ever seen," she replied. "Okay," we said in unison. She took her phone out and started playing this instrumental. The beat was dope af. She had us all bopping to it. After a few seconds passed, she started singing. "Pills n' potions. We're overdosing. I'm angry but I still love you. Pills n' potions. We're overdosing. Can't stand it but I still love you..." She kept singing making us smile until she got to a rap part. I was just stunned. We were together for so long and I have never heard Lexi rap before. It's always been singing. Don't get me wrong, I love hearing her sing, but when she was rapping, I got chills. It's another thing we have in common but I just...I have no words. She had a nigga speechless. "Aye yo, they could never make me hate you. Even though what you was doing wasn't tasteful. Even though you out here looking so ungrateful. Imma keep it moving, be classy and graceful. I told 'em it's no friends in the game, you ain't learned that yet. All the bridges you came over, don't burn that yet. Niggas want respect, but niggas ain't earned that yet. Self-righteous, and entitled, but they swearing on the bible that they love you when really they're no different from all your rivals. But I still don't wish death on them, I just reflect on them..." Oooooo she's good. Why she ain't let me in on this secret though? Damn! "Yo, people will love you and support when it's beneficial. Imma forgive, I won't forget, but I'mma dead the issue. Soon as you out the nigga's lives is when they start to miss you. They see you doing good now it's kinda hard to diss you. Niggas be sick when they remember all the bad they wished you. Niggas be mad when they can't come and live lavish with you. But I sped off in a Benzy, I see the envy when I'm causing a frenzy. So I pop pills for them, cop cribs in the Hills on 'em..." Well damn! She was spittin the rhymes and straight facts too. (I know that's Nicki's song & I just LOVE it! Can't get it out of my head but just go with it. It's relevant to the story, what's happening and what's about to happen!) "Damn, Lexi," Roger said looking as shocked as me & Spin. "I ain't know you could rap!" She giggled and nodded. "No one does. Just Ri," she said smiling at Serina. I had no words but "damn." Wait, why didn't I know about this though? "Why didn't you tell me," I asked. She shrugged. "I don't know. It wasn't something I wanted to do so I just never did it. But now, everything's changing. I'm changing. So I decided to try something new," she replied. "You should definitely put that out," Spin said. "I've been thinking about it. I just might do that," she replied. "So, what made you write that? I know all your songs have a story behind it unlike some people who write just to write. So what's the story for this," Spin asked her. "Well, part of it was for the people who doubted and all those fake ass people who claim to love me and that they're here for me. And part of it was for..." She paused for a few seconds then eventually looked at me. He noticed us staring at each other and he nodded. "Okay," he said breaking the silence. "Well you should definitely drop that. It's dope." She looked at him and smiled. "Thanks," she replied. I sat there thinking about those seconds of staring and the song. She wrote that partially for me. Even though it was written a while ago, does she still feel the same way? Why would she just bring it up now? Then I thought if something she said earlier. Never say never.