This year, I'm rooting for stable career, but my ultimate priority is to make sure that I would get to enjoy, learn something and be grateful in the NOW. Be fully present. Look forward not really on big occassion but more on small moments; cherish the everyday occurence of my life - my mother's dishes, get together, playing with my pets, my work, my restday... ordinary repeatitive moments are the ones that you'll truly missed one day and I want to take as many picture as I can with these moments. It wont be easy because we wake up every day with different emotions but I'd do my best. Im choosing my soul this year 2023, get to know Holy Spirit more and get to know myself as well, discover new things so help me God.
To people who know me can say especially if they based it to the world's standard, I arrived quite too late to everything; love, carreer, maturity etc. -- a late bloomer. In fact, I havent even achieved stabilty to any of those up until now - stable relationship - definitely none, stable career - still on it. Maturity - I still dont know how to cook, Im having emotional breakdown from time to time, still not into people much.
I know that I'm not the same as many. I played a mediocre life. I'm emotional and awkward, and
It takes time, a lot of time, for me to gather courage to make another step forward. I savour my inferiority complex way too much. Still cringe whenever I recall some stupid things I did when I'm younger. Blamed myself for being extra dumb, shy etc. Today, I can honestly say that I finally be able to accept my whole being and I realized and concluded that life is indeed not a race. This is my own path, my very own story, my character, my personality. I can't be someone I'm not. I'm still learning to love every fiber of my being. Change anything that no longer serves purpose to my becoming. This is me. No matter how long it takes I'm going to arrive to my end game. This transformation, this process wouldnt be possible without God. To Him alone I surrender my every tomorrow. To Him alone I will lay my full trust. God, please never get tired saving me. 🙏
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Simple Reminders
RandomA series of devotion. Encountering God's mighty gift; the Holy Spirit. These are the words from God that came to me as I read books about Him and Bible of course. Thank God for His words are alive and changing me from sinner to work in progression...
