everyone looks shocked. addison seems upset but ok. josh on the other hand has his mouth dropped and i can see how hurt he is.
jaden: for how long?
you: um... about 7 months now
mads: we are happy for you
addison: congrats guys
she smiles at me but i can't tell if it's a fake smile. josh still has his jaw dropped.
blake: how'd it start?
bryce: well like the first 5 months we were there we were still upset ab addison and josh. then our producers wanted us to act like we were dating for publicity. then it kinda just happened.
josh walks off upstairs.
you: josh-
charli: let him cool off for a minute
i nod.
you: addison can i talk to you?
she nods and we go in the kitchen.
you: i'm so so so so so sorry-
addison: it's fine. *laughs* bryce and i promised to not wait for eachother. i'm just glad he's with you and not some bitch
she laughs
you: so your not mad??
addison: no i'm really happy for you guys!!of course i still love him but i'm really happy for you both.
you: oh thank god your my bestfriend and i was so worried you were gonna hate-
addison: i could never hate you
she laughs and we hug. we go into the living room. her and bryce talk to make sure it's ok. he's relieved that she's not mad.
you: i should go talk to josh
noah: good idea
i go to josh's room and knock. no answer. i just go in. i see josh sitting in the edge of his bed with his head in his hands. i sit next to him and place my hand on his back.
you: josh i'm-
josh: sorry?
you: ya. i'm sorry. i was scared you were gonna be mad.
josh: i'm not mad. i'm just upset. i couldn't wait to get back together. but your with bryce. that's why you didn't wanna stay with me last night
i slightly nod. he sighs
josh: i still love you nessa. i haven't stopped thinking ab you since you left
you: i still love you obviously. i just am with bryce and i'm happy. i did think ab you everyday through. either missing you or thinking you'd hate me for being wt bryce
josh: i could never hate you
i hug him.
you: can bryce talk with you? he's worried your mad
josh: ya
i leave josh's room and bryce goes in. i head to the living room.
millie: is he mad?
you: no he said he's just upset.
jaden: ok
you: addison are you sure your not mad??
addison: i'm not mad ness i'm happy you both are happy
she laughs and hugs me again. she's the sweetest fucking person i've literally ever met. we all talk while bryce is wt josh.
josh's pov~
bryce comes in.
bryce: josh i'm sorry i didn't mean to take her from you it's just things got complicated down there-
josh: man it's fine. i get it. so did anything happen to her down there?
bryce: there were a few days where i couldn't get her to eat. i offered to call you but she said she couldn't handle seeing you. so i tried doing what you always did with her on your lap. i finally got her to eat.
josh: thank you
i used to be the only one that could get her to eat. it was kinda like a special connection i had with her. but now he has it too. i hug him.
bryce: again i'm sorry.
josh: it's fine bryce. you guys are like the two most important people in the world to me so i just want you both happy
we hug again. he leaves my room and i sit there thinking for a bit. of course i'm happy that nessa is happy but i wish i was the one making her happy. i wish her and bryce weren't together and ik that's selfish but i can't help to think it. she's not my girl any more. she's his.
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