Shit rant poems

I do not cry

I stub my toe on my corner cupboard door

In my kitchen next to my sink

I do not cry

My pain is fairly temporary

I fall off a scooter and skin my whole left leg

I was wearing shorts
It seemed fitting for summer

I get back up
And do another lap before tending to the blood and grazing

I wince in pain

The bandages stick to my leg funny

The wound oozes with weird pus

I do not cry

I visit my dad for the first time in a while
He says things I never want to hear

Tells me lies about things I know the certain truth of

Makes me feel like shit

He reminds of what he did in the past

I do not want to come back
I did not want to go to him

I do not let him make me upset

I do not cry

I fall in love with the wrong person

They hurt me unconditionally

I make the same mistakes twice

I repeat myself
I repeat the same phases

A cycle appears

No single constant in my life changes

I am left to my own devices

I do not cry

There is a shooting overseas

Multiple casualties
Mass weapons
Terror threats everywhere
Media blow up

I should absolutely be hysterical

I do not cry

I feel ashamed

A woman crashes her car off a bridge

She dies violently
Her lover now lives with their lips forever missing her lips

They can never meet again

I do not know
I didn't see the news that day

I do not cry

I see family I haven't seen for a while
They bring back childhood memories

I see my treasured possessions cut up and claimed in my sisters room

My cat goes missing in actions for hours
We presume him dead
He comes back
He is too late

Flashbacks of our past pets come flooding back to everyone

I fail my exams
I am frustrated
I am disappointed
I am reprimanded

My distance between myself and others grows

My ability to talk about the things that bother me weakens

Reality feels less real

I feel like time is a joke

But

I do not cry
I do not cry
I do not cry
I do not cry
I do not cry
I do not cry

Even when tears fall I am not sobbing

This is not crying
These are sympathy
No
Pity tears

I do not cry
I do not cry
I do not cry
I do not cry
I do not cry

Not ever

And not ever when anyone can see

You may as well call me a man

I am devoid of emotions like sadness

Even if that excludes me from happiness
I cannot feel feeelings
Or have a release for them

Its like I've taken a vow

Or a promise to myself

And I forever keep it

I remind myself

And never falter

Once again

I do not cry

I do not cry

I do not cry

I do not cry

I do not cry