Shit rant poems

Stuff

Show me the new paths forged with time and despair

And love I guess

Becaus it feels like its been 16 thousand years

And its easy to forget you way in the mist

I hope you didnt forget my name

Even though my face has changed

I hope you remember my coffee order

Even though i only drank tea

It was a trick question you see

Not the tea

My face

I preferred the lights off

So you couldnt see the faces i made

So you couldnt see how hard everything was

Why i had to leave

What i had to deal with

Or how

I did none of it in a hurry

Because i didnt want to leave

No

Correction

I didnt want to go

And leave you

Because i knew you would wait

But

I dont know if you can love me still

Even though youre here and i stand before you

So i guess we have a lot to talk about

Lets throw open the curtains first

And see the centuries of dust

Itll be weird to see everything

In the almost light

Wont it though?

The rust on the once new modern chairs

The microwave in cobwebs

And even though what i describe is an Office space

It could be an apartment

For lovers

A base

For co conspirators

A cubby

For old friends

A rehab centre

For two ex addicts of something

Who k n o w s

And who c a r e s

Most certainly not

Me

Most certainly not

Them

But just what about

You?

According to your mental notes

Did I fuck up

Am I fuck up for what I did
Do you regret your time

The wait

The reunion

The goodbye

Wait no

This needs to stop

I don't want to hear a response

Or to list the possibilities and

A
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Over them

This stops now

I should've never said

Hi again

And just

Left you with a goodbye

Even if it meant leaving you waiting

After all that time

Oh god this fucking time