Shit rant poems

On My Heart//Dischargement//Get Fucked

There are names on my heart

Unerasable ones

And no one knows why

Least of all me

There are names on my heart

Of people I never even loved

There's something scrawled on my soul

And friendship isnt the one

There's names in my head

Of people that I just want to be friends with

But

Life skews

My point of view

In the

Most

Peculiar

Peculiarly

Fucked up ways

And I'm done

With

Fake realities

And pity

And pretending

And letting people speak for me

Because

Jesus can't take the fucking wheel if I never believed in him

And so it's just me

Me like it's always fucking been

Against everything

Every dumb fucking fight

Every scream at me

Or her

Or mine

My screams

Into

The void

Because you'd never fucking listen

And
I wish you would because I have so many fucking questions

Like why

And

How you changed

Because

You're filled with so much hate

Its vehement and unnaturally occurring

And why can't

She

Fight back

And retaliate

Or

How she internalises everything

And makes the other person do so too

How the fuck does she do it

Because I feel like a crazy bitch

For wanting to fight

And

Yell and scream

And I wish I could write about happy things

Aspirations and inspirations

The iconic men that are the fab five

But I'm here

And I'll scream and I'll cry all I need

Because if I leave you all

You'll fight immaturely

Or refuse to talk

And I fucking can't

There's a voice

Of someone who's there for me

Actually there

Not just a kind word

Or person to protect

But someone who tells me about the right

But none of you would know that

Because youve either been in the wrong for too fucking long

Or I've protected you from both

But I'm done

Playing mum

And teacher

And tutor

And fucking therapist

Because I like helping

But some things you need to set free

And I'm stuck

Again

In the place I hate the fucking most

Dealing with all of you

And

Stuck with myself

Fuck it

Fuck it all

Fuck fake fruends

And

F
U
C
K

Having to wait for things to get better

For all your shit to solved

On more than a temporary basis

Fucking waiting for the cannons to lower

And gunfire to cease

When I could walk away from it all

It's not munity to any of you

Its dischargenent

Because I don't owe any of you

Anything

And the goodwill

Of my heart

Has well and truly run

Thin

Dry

And out

Get fucked

And fix your own issues

Because I won't fucking be there anymore

You'll just have to somehow

Do without