Shit rant poems

I Wait

Waiting

How ridiculous

Fuck off

Truly

Well and truly

You can get fucked

Because I've waited fifteen fucking years for it

I waited forever to start school

Then I waited forever for it to stop

So I could go home

I waited forever to make friends

And to lose some

I wanted forever to stop being bullied

I waited forever to stop being a victim

I waited forever to feel innocent

I waited to be able to dance

I waited to be able to sing

And

I got it

But when i did

As soon as i did

I waited to see how fucking long ot would last

I waited for the bad to start

I waited to stop enjoying the good

Then

I waited

Forever

I'm still waiting

But I can so clearly remember

Sitting there

Waiting for time to pass

So it didnt seem like i was reading to fast

Or going too fast for everything

I waited

To go to bed and dream fresh

I waited to go home

I waited to be me

I waited to be safe

I waited for it to stop

I waited for his cold hands to not brush mine

I waited for his face to not glare at mine

I waited for his shadow to enter the barely dark room

I waited for the number 75

The tram that went by

E v e r y

15 minutes

I waited to stop waiting

For everything to be okay

I waited for my bed to stop creaking

I waited for the blankets to cool down

I waited for the click of the door

I waited for the movie to run downstairs

I waited to hear the microwave popcorn ping

I waited to hear him going up the stairs

And

I waited

For his hands

To never again roam

And

I'll never stop waiting him to realise

What the fuck he was doing

I wait for him to see me again

As a human

A living breathing person

Not created in your desire

Or for your desire

I wait to be free

I wait to never see him

I wait to be independent

I wait to find my meaning in love

I wait to tell my sister she was right

That

I waited

And found my thing

I wait for the day this is a memory

I wait for it to fade happily into the pass

And I wait

To be me

And have

My thing

My hobby

I wait for my meaning

And

I wait
It's like

I wait

&

I wait

Forever

As it almost seems

It's as if I've waited

Forever

And will do so

For the unforseeable

Disastrous

Future

So

F u c k

Being told I have to wait

And what exactly for

And how so

When I've been waiting forever

For anything

But ultimately

Nothing

Nothing comes

So

Lets
Make
It
So

Because

I wait

&

Fuck that