78 hard hits of my head against a brick wall
Yeah
Thats how i feel right now
Im not hurt
I just want to slam my forehead
Seventy eight
TimesAgainst a hard
Cold
BrittleBrick wall
And see my blood swirl
Ripple
And dropRun freely from my face
And probably gums
Because if you dont lose teeth from the experience
Its like
It devalues
The black eyes
Bruised cheeks
Concussion
Fluid on the brain
Broken jaws
Pain the the neck
Loss of consciousnessAnd etc
But you see
I wish that
And all those things
The symptoms of bitter, bleeding, sweet, metallic tasting victory
The warm tingly fuzzy feeling before you black out
Maybe even permanently
But i want this
Because its currently the best solution
People want to or want others to ram their heads into walls out of frustration
But while i actually do it
And when another kid with the exact same problem
Doesnt solve it
They accept their defeat
By maybe crying
Or talking about it
The physically pain free route
They get to come to the same conclusion that i will
Even though i will have worked
Exponentially harder to get there
They can say
'It was hard but i thought about it and worked thru all the shit in my head'I get to say it was hard
And i bashed my head into the concrete material that makes up the nearest wall
And i have every injury to prove it
But no substance to base my actions on
Its a
But i
But
I did this
Moment
Its the supermarket pastry beating a french baker
Healthy mindsets vs brick walls and the bird shit that stains them
And its also
My fucking life
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PoetryThere are so so so many typos and one day, I'll fix them all.....maybe