I can't stay here
In this place I once called home
I can't stay but I can't go
I can't live
Like this
But I can't-
I can't just give up, can I?
No,
I know I could
But mostly fear
Is keeping me here
At least right now
As terrible as that sounds
I don't want to stay
But I don't-
I can't go
So I'm stuck
In this life
That's become everything I hate, somehow
I don't know if there was ever anything
That felt genuine
Or if this was it...
Nothing
Nothing
Seems to work anymore
Nothing at all seems to matter
Time just goes by
Too fast for me to keep track of
Too slow
Because then,
You won't do anything
You won't
So then I'll have to try
I'll try the same things I tried before
Hoping I could get rid of this emptiness
I still feel
Same as before
Same as always
Why did I even try to pretend
Try to believe
Things would be different?
If I made it to the future, then things would be somehow okay?
But no
They aren't
No matter where I am
No matter what I do
I can't seem to make a difference
No one seems to really notice
Or maybe they do
For a second
Then they disappear again-
Right as I needed help the most
So I'll just cut all ties with you
I won't try to reach out and I know you won't
But that works out fine for me
I want to be alone
I don't want you to try
To convince me to do something
Anything
I don't want
You to pretend to care
Maybe you do
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PoetryA collection of poetry, all written by me. Some of its kind of sad, and kind of dark. But it's all based, however loosely, on real life. A note before you read: I'm glad you're taking the time to read my poetry :). But before you do, I'd like to m...