Time to think,
Time to wonder,
Time to regret
And feel
Everything,
As it is,
Not as I wish it would be,
Not as I hoped it would be,
As it is
Time to try
Time to wait
Time to wish
I could truly do what would make me happy
Time to hope
Someone would go out of their way to try to help this lonely soul
But spend long enough on your own and gradually people will ignore you
As if you never existed
With all of this and more,
It's difficult to see
How this is at all
The vacation,
The break
I was promised
But at this point
I'm completely unsurprised
I've been
Up
And
Down
And up again
Then crashing,
Time and time again
It doesn't matter what went well,
I might be riding a roller coaster,
But one of emotions
And thoughts
That I can't get off of
I might be supposed to be relaxing,
But let me tell you,
Having no responsiblities
Only breeds worry
And restlessness
Or, in my case,
More
More sadness
More emptiness
More pain
But I'm used to that
The circumstances I'm in change
But these feelings don't
Normalcy,
Breaks,
Everything in between,
My mood is still colored in dark shades
And if I smile,
I might be happy on the surface,
But I promise,
The sadness always seems more geniune, more true.
Empty fantasies
Conjured up to fill the long hours as they slip away,
Away,
Away,
Always crash back to earth
Maybe I should take a break
Oh, no, why didn't I think of that?
But I did
It didn't work
Maybe I didn't try hard enough
For there was a good feeling sometimes-
I don't know
But let me tell you this,
Of everything
I've ever done and been through,
There's nothing more fear-inducing
Then given time by yourself
And feeling any semblence of help
Slowly trickle away
Leaving you stranded
And wondering
And unable to care
As they all entertain themselves
And you sit listless
Unable to find peace
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The Original Poems
PoetryA collection of poetry, all written by me. Some of its kind of sad, and kind of dark. But it's all based, however loosely, on real life. A note before you read: I'm glad you're taking the time to read my poetry :). But before you do, I'd like to m...
