Never be always available for anyone be it your friends family or your love. This will let them take you for granted. Let them go and see how they come to you.
I opened my eyes and found my arms and legs tied to a metal chair with thick ropes. I struggled against the restraints but it seems like a fail attempt
" nice try again "
I heard a familiar voice. He was sitting in a chair a few feet from me and was giving me a look you are so dead " let me go "
In a flash he moved and came closer to me. Our face inches apart " I'm gonna kill you slowly and painfully"
Ok I was going to die today
" no please let me go please " I struggled to free myself
He removed his knife and brought it closer to my skin
" no please no no no no "
I squeezed my eyes shut and stopped breathing awaiting the stab.
Please dont let it get hurt no no please just
I woke up with a loud scream. Sweat was dripping from my skin. My breathing had become shallow and ny whole body was shivering.
I hope I wasn't too loud
I can hear the sound of my phone ringing
Thank god whoever that person is who ruined my sleep otherwise I would be dead
It was just a dream rose
Just.....god it was so real and so fuckin scary
I glance at my phone and it was jacob calling. I leave him a message to pick me in an hour
I've been having this nightmares every other night.
Last time he pushed me of a cliff
I've been thinking about him so much these days. But I can't help it. I fear he'll kidnap me or kill me or god knows what
" sweety. What happened? " mom came in my room as i was heading for a shower. She came and started scanning me
I smiled and hugged her calming her and myself too " relax mom. Just a bad dream "
She pulled me off her embrace and got more panicked " why are you having bad dreams? Is everything okay? "
I forced her to sit on the bed
" mom everything is ok. Now can i just go get ready otherwise jacob would have to wait " as soom as my lips left Jacob's name she instantly relaxed. God it will break their heart knowing I'm not dating him and he is gay. Jacob is like a son to them.
" If jacob is with you i have nothing to worry. I really like that guy for you. And dad is really adamant to marry you both " i wanted to tell her so many things that this is not possible. Please stop hoping but i can't. It's not my place to tell about jacob.
" mom jacob and me are for forever together. But as friends. I don't like him that way. I went in a relationship with him coz dad wanted it. I gave him a chance but felt nothing " yes before asking me jacob asked dad that can i date him. I know real typical of him but now as i think dat was a smart move. He knew dad wont say no.
And even i was damn shocked that jacob likes me. I mean he was my best buddy and suddenly this like and all thing. I did not want to let down dad and ruin my friendship with jacob. He was my only friend.
" give it more time. Everything will fell in place. Remember dad really want this to happen. Your dad and Jacob's - " god she starts again. This is really an emotional blackmail. Leave. If i give it time they'll understand.
" mom i have to really get ready." i grab her hand and push her out
" I'll talk to you later. I love you. I'm gonna miss you. And now I'm gonna kiss you "
" rose lis- " i give her a goodbye kiss on her cheek and shut the door
Giggling to myself I head for a shower. After a warm quick I wrapped myself in a towel amd came out. Opening the closet I decided to wear a long sleeveless black gown.
Jake told me to look presentable as we were going to meet his producers
After the talk with jacob there was no more pretending to be lovers.
Thank god for that
We are externally lovers but internally we are not. Now he didn't have to do the drama with me at least
I still cant believe he lied to me
I never thought jacob was a gay
I dont get it why this will ruin his image or affect his career in any way
I pinned my hair in a loose messy bun and wore some shiny pair of earrings. I did a little makeup and I was ready to leave
I hear the horns confirming his arrival. I gave a final look and ran down " hi.....you look lovely as usual " he kissed me on my cheeks as soon as he met me.
" thanks....you dont look bad yourself " he was wearing a tuxedo and was holding a present.
" you'll both look so lovely together " mom complimented coming forward as well. We both tried to look away and fake a smile
" thanks. This is for you " he presented a bouque of lilies held by him to mom and she smiled.
" you better take care of my princess. " typical dad. I gave dad a hug and Jacob nodded
" bye guys "
I hopped in his car in a very unlady like way and started messing with the songs. I'm more relaxed now with him i dont know why.
" Jacob i missed this friendly atmosphere with you so much. I mean when we were dating i always used to be on guard behaving carefully " i stated a secret and he laughed out loud.
" I'll never forget that one date when you accidentally spilled your wine on someone and sneaked out from there "
" you saw that? "
" ofcourse i did. And you were so nervous to be find out "
" such an asshole you are. You knew it and you were still delaying to leave " we both laughed like before but then he said in a serious voice.
" It was not only you who was suffering. Imagine me. I knew it i was betrayin you every moment still i had to pretend. I had to impress you somehow " i can understand it was hard.
" What would have happen if i would have fallen for you? "
" I would have never forgiven myself. Each day i was struggling to make you fall in love with me and hoping that somehow you don't. For the first time in months i was relieved when you started showing you don't have feelings for me "
" And i was upset that you love me so much and couldn't return your feelings " we both were just talkin. Not lookin at each other at all because i know he couldn't stand the guilt lookin in my eyes.
I've forgiven him but he will never forgive himself i know that. I know he cares for me a lot that's why it was easy to forgive him. Thinking from his point of view being a gay betraying his best friend and struggling to keep up with his dream.
" well the sayin is true. Love is an heart to heart connection. I really didn't love you that way and that's why couldn't make you fall in love with me "
I wiped my tears and try to change the mood " You really didn't. My best friend don't love me. Why didn't you swallow me earth before showing this harsh reality " and he smiled again.
" Ofcourse i love you. More than anyone. More than myself and I'm sorry ro -
" oh for god sake shut up. I swear if you'll apologise once more I'll change my mind of coming with you " we both laughed and smiled and relived every best moments of us just like before. I miss him so much and i got him back thay wat matters.
After three hours.....
We were in his car heading back home and i was almost curled in a ball almost sleeping.
" that went beyond my expectations rose...I always knew you wera hiding a kick ass actress somewhere there " jacob complimented me grinning from ear to ear.
" well I guess the drama classes in school was a great help. But no doubt you are the best actor alive in the whole universe . Not everyone has the ability to fool his best friend for one year. " i said in a sleepy voice and can hear his laughter stopped.
" you'll neva let me forget that....will you? " he said looking my way but now he was guilty but somehow relaxed too that i forgived him.
" never. Wat kind of a friend i am if i let you forget that. I'll take my revenge from you. just wait and watch " the rest of the drive went quickly as we both were plotting ways of my revenge against him.
" weren't you gettin too much cosy? " i taunt him and he removed his tongue in a way I'm so sorry.
The dinner was actually good and the pretending lovers part was not as hard as I thought. They were very much convince by our act and of course jacob.
I dont know what got into him today he was all over honey and baby and holding hands and hugging and kissing me every now and then. This was not also when we were dating.
I even had to give him one or two deadly glares.
He lowered the music volume and replied " sorry. I had to rose....it was needed...I cannot risk raising a suspicion " he defended and i said nothing
" im sorry if you felt bad or if it was too much "
" no its ok. It was just a one time show " I smiled at him and he sighed in relief.
As we reached he opened my door and forward a box wrapped like a gift " I can't thank you enough rose....you don't know what have you done for me.....I love you so much...Please take this " he said gladly.
I took the box in excitement and gave him a hug " anything for you stupid "
I opened the gift getting impatient and it was a beautiful dress.
" rose I am really sorry for hiding the truth and making us suffer but promise me you won't do the same " he said suddenly
" I have nothing to hide....This is beautiful " I state scanning the dress but suddenly i realised I'm hiding something from him. I didn't get the time at all to tell him everything about alex.
But he's already so stressed or just came out of a stress and i don't want to stress him now.
" I know but just in case..... remember I'm just a call away from you "
" I know....now please tell me how much more are you gonna bore me with your serious talks......im tired " I tease and fake a yawn and he handed me my heels which i forgot totally. I removed it as soon as i got rid from that drama.
He slap my shoulder playfully
" fine bye I'm going " he said irritated. I giggled and made my way back
I changed into my pajamas as soon as possible. I was damn tired. Those heels have scraped my legs
My phone buzzed and it was a text from hazel. She send me a pic of all. They were clubbing on a saturday night
" when the hell are you comin back bitch.....we miss you so much :p "
I miss them too especially chris
I wonder every other second of the day what he might be doing
Does he even miss me
If he does he would have texted you
And dont forget just friends
He said friends...not just freinds.....dont exaggerate
Whatever.....the bottom line is I miss him more than anything
"Thinking about me?"
I was facing my cupboard when I heard a familiar voice
Rose you are just hallucinating things now
Or maybe it is the champagne talking in your mind
is rose a good friend?
and who is it at the door?
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