In my little world ( Completed )

HUSH UP

Anjana's narration :
As a teenager I was not very conscious of how I looked or took no interest on how to stay stylish ! so is my adulthood now. When your profession doesn't demand to look good and have nobody to impress, there's little care and concern on how you present yourself😏. Moreover where do I have money for all these ?
I come from a family where glam and glitz is not a part of daily routine,those things are reserved for Marriages and functions. If I recall the first and last time I applied makeup was for a college event 3 yrs ago. Since then I haven't put even a nail polish . Although Shruti and many others had asked to change my style, never did I feel the pressure to get a makeover. Today I reached a stage where my debts are not a big problem, and can spend for myself.
The only cosmetic I have is kajal (eye liner), but due to my dirty habit of rubbing eyes once in a while I rarely use it🙈. Somehow there developed a drive to become appealing and pleasing to Achyuth, after noticing his closeness with Akriti. Not to blame all men, but beauty is what captivates and incites interest in other person and in my case there's nothing much to look at compared to Akriti👯. I'm an average 5 and 1/2 feet girl with wheatish complexion. On the other hand Akriti stands equal or slightly an inch short of Achyuth who is around 5. 9' tall. Model like physique complemented with fair shinning skin and intelligent brains, what else can stop Achyuth from liking her. 😷
"What's up Anjoos ? Staring at the mirror for so long ?" Shruti interrupted my thoughts.
"Do you think I would look better wearing makeup ?" surprise was evident on her face after my question. 😱
" What happened to you ? Suddenly interested in makeup " asked Shruti.
"Sometimes I feel like doing " I answered, without revealing the matter, which I prefer not to tell her this early.
" Oh ! Why don't we try then !"Shruti jumped out of excitement and took out her makeup box. With no objections I permitted her to experiment on my face. She kept on rubbing, swirling, brushing for nearly an hour before witnessing myself in the mirror. I became unusually fair, my dark spots were faded, giving the so called pretty new impersonation👰. " Everything is fine except for the dressing and hairstyle. Let's go for shopping " said Shruti.
" Shopping ? But why ?"I responded.
" It is a must to have proper clothing to enhance your looks. Babe, show me one dress in your cupboard apart from the kurti and chudidars ?" questioned shruthi.
Me smiling, 😀 looking at the cupboard  there are only chudidars and long tunics everywhere including the jeans which I pair with a kurti. " I have very little money to buy new clothes" I said.
" I have an idea. Follow me" she said and I trusted her ! who else could understand these things  better than a fashion expert like her. 👸
It is after visiting Sarojini market I realized that good looking posh and stylish clothes can be brought at cheap rates. "Stop" Shruti hit my hand after it caught an off- white beautiful anarakali dress.

"This one looks good " I moaned. 😮
"Please for god sake shift your attention from those anarkali's and kurti's, we came to buy some new stuff" Shruti was annoyed. A-lines, crop tops, pants, shifts, maxi, plazzos one of each variety with light shades, small prints everything was selected by Shruti. Despite her warning I couldn't resist myself from buying the anarakali and dared to go an extra mile to wear sleeveless dress for the first time. 😜
In the end, I was dragged to beauty saloon to sacrifice my beloved hair inorder to get a long layered haircut, trimming and waxing was also done.💇
Even though reluctant to get a make over initially, when it comes to the matter of winning Achyuth's heart I can't step back. 🙅
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All decked up I entered the office in actual formal pants and a shirt. ( There is no compulsion to wear formals at our office. Any descent dress would serve the need)I noticed the subtle surprise reactions from my colleagues that increased the awareness about my appearance and decreased my working efficiency. What bothered me is the makeup which shruti did ! It looked artificial and unusual.
In the break, I marched towards towards cafeteria where I met pk, who didn't come out of the shock after seeing me😵. "Don't over react " I smiled and the next moment Achyuth came into the scene walking along with Akriti beside him. Greatly elated for a second when he looked at me,😍 but was left bummed out😟 when a deep furrow appeared between his brows associated with a short lived wierd expression as he passed by.
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Did I overdress or is my makeup horrible ? I was not expecting that wierd look, after enduring all the pain from the tangled loose hair stucking everywhere in the metro and feet getting crushed against the heels all day. They say putting on makeup gives confidence, but strangely I was uncomfortable😧. It did conceal my blemishes, but was also hiding the original me, forcing to be fake and pretentious. I would be contented for being hated for the person I am rather that being loved for the person I am not.
Not everybody has pretty face and attractive physique - such traits are mostly acquired as a genetic lottery.
Why become insecure and run after those things which are beyond my power. Neither the cost of my dress nor the color of eyeshadow should be the parameter in defining me and I want Achyuth to look beyond them and accept my true personality. 😳
Next day I gave up the idea of putting makeup and invested that time in sleeping, but continued using kajal which complimented my looks.
"you'll get used to it slowly" suggested Shruti and encouraged me to put on makeup, but I turned down.
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After a couple of days :
Achyuth was busy in his work but I was sitting idle scribbling inside some old file, resting my head on desk.😑 "What's up smarty pants ?" said someone from behind. I quickly closed the file and adjusted my hair to notice pk who came and sat beside me. "What did you just say ?" I asked him. " You look smart and gorgeous these days ! what are you hiding ?" said pk raising his eyebrows.
"That was some old file" I responded rubbing my eyes. "Your eyes !" Laughed pk😂. Damn ! it slipped out of my control and my eyeliner smudged. What should I do with this annoying habit ?
"Did it smudge ?"
" Yes ! what's with this sudden change?" he asked. I didn't react and pk asked me for the file once again.
"It's nothing ! I was scribbling some nonsense " I covered up.
"why don't you show it ? This is raising a lot of doubts now !" smiled pk sheepishly. 😄
Did this fellow find out anything regarding me liking Achyuth ? HUSH up ! It's not the time to reveal. Before his suspicion grows further, it's better to give him the file. 😮
He took it and straight away opened the last page. He looked deeply for sometime and spoke," Nonsense ? I'm sure it makes a lot of sense. I know what's going on. You like Achyuth am I right ?" smiled pk. 😁
I was dumbstruck and lost for words, how did he know ? " What ? how can you say, from those bizzare scratches" I debated. 😐

" Look here, people would notice some mountain like things, or Allu Arjun's signature AA, but gifted people like me can see the actual meaning. Letter A written in a row and joined by a single line, one A for Anjana and other A for Achyuth all the letters are in pairs. This VA- is venkata Achyuth and AS - Anjana srilakshmi , with some hidden hearts" described pavan. 😎
This fellow is really intelligent in this area and could decode everything from my scribblings.
" Im observing you akkaya😁 ( elder sister ) from the time you have been paying more attention to Achyuth sir. The way you look for him at every corner, silently peep into his chamber and innocently enquire me about him. That day the disappointment on your face when you tried to impress with your decked up and stylish look when he ignored you, I remember. And now this scribbling says it all " concluded pk.
Did I make it too obvious ? I tried to hide, but can't lie anymore ! so nodded with a smile. 😊
" When are you going to tell him ?" asked pk. " I don't know whether he likes anybody else ? He is a hard nut to crack and the main question - I want him in my life, but am I deserving enough to be in his life ?" I sighed. 😖
" Nobody else could answer this except Achyuth himself. It's entirely the person's choice to decide on who deserves to stay in their lives. Love is not that easy.But my grandma used to say - when you are ready to give more that what you have with pure soul and genuine efforts then what you get in return is more than you deserve " said pk.
" Hmm...but promise me that you won't tell this matter to anyone. Ok !" I requested him. " Never ! Why would I ?"  promised pk.✊