Sakusa POV
What the hell am I doing?
Seriously? Good night, that's it? You really are a big idiot Kiyoomi! I lost my chance!
After I said good night, I began walking away in a normal pace and when her house is not in sight anymore, I ran to my house. I was panting hard as I was arguing in my mind.
This is so messed up!
How can I approach her tomorrow if I keep acting like this? Would she even like me back?
My mind went back to the moment where she said 'The moon is lovely, isn't it?', I thought that she likes me back. And I even said that I like her.
But then just why did I panicked and said that it was the moon I liked?
That was supposed to be my chance but I totally blew it up! Great, how great. I can't believe I'm much more of an idiot than those stupid annoying fox!
And when I called her when she was about to go inside her house, why the hell did I hesitate? I even blew up my second chance!
If I'll keep acting weird like this, she might distance herself away from me like I did to the germs. Gosh, just what am I going to do now?
Guess I'll have to ask Komori for more advice.
I arrived at my house then directly ran to my room, I didn't even have the appetite to eat anymore. I was getting anxious about her. I can't stop thinking about her.
I flopped down in my bed, burying my face into the pillow and I didn't even bother changing my clothes. I don't want her to start avoiding me tomorrow.
What if tomorrow someone will really take her away? Or in another day? Dammit! Why did have to be a coward in front of her, Kiyoomi??!?!
I took out my phone then went to Komori's number. I don't want to dial him since he'll annoy me more.
••••
Me: Komori, you awake? I need to ask you about something?
I waited for his reply and hope that he is still awake. A minute later, my phone beeped and I got a reply from him.
Komori: Oh hey Sakusa! How was it? Are you to finally together?
I should've expected that he would ask me that question. Gosh, I don't even want to talk about it anymore.
Me: I messed up....Twice.
Komori: WHAT???!? How did you even confess to her?!?!
Me: Well, we were walking home late at night since the train was so stuffed. And she said 'The moon is lovely, isn't it', so I said that I like her.
Komori: She probably did likes you if she said that. That phrase was quite famous in some novels.
So why did you said you messed it up?Me: I panicked then said that it was the moon I was talking about so she just let it off.
Komori: You said you messed up twice and why is that?
Me: ...
I don't even want to type the whole thing since I don't want to be reminded of what kind of an idiot I am a while ago.
Komori: What do you mean by '...' ?
Me: Well, when she was about to go inside her house I was about to finally confess my feelings for her. But then, I was afraid that she might reject me after this.. So I just told her good night.
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