High On Life

19: Words Which We Never Said

Nida's POV:

Dear Diary,

It's been almost a month eversince we spoke to each other. I miss him :'(

It's like we don't even exist for each other. I've tried so hard to get him, to understand his feelings, to comprehend his behaviour but now....I've just given up on myself.........on him. There's absolutely no way he can ever be mine. I just want to leave this school and never come back :'(

It's as if Shehry and I are like poles on a magnet now. Either we're both North, or we're South. We keep repelling each other.

During assembly times:

We try to stand at the least 10 metres away from each other. If he's first in line, I'd go stand last, just to avoid him, and vice versa if I were first. (Main idea: Allergies)

During recess:

We sit in different tables, always with our backs against each other. (Main idea: I don't wanna see your face as you're gulping down your food)

During P.E:

One of us personally asks Mr. Lee, to enroll us for separate games. (Main idea: To avoid another fuckin' fight over just a game -_- )

During classes:

We both refuse to work in teams for any project or any task which involves teamwork. I always team up with Harry or Maham, well because they're also pretty smart, but mainly because I want to avoid Shehry. And he does the same, pairing up with others. And it just infuriates my organs from the inside seeing him interact all 'phul jharri' with other girls in his team. Meray saath kia maut parhti thi isse? (Main idea: Ignorance to the max, or possibly to arouse jealousy)

So the point is, I need to get him out of my life, no matter what !

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Thi yeh do dilon ki jung, jahan na to koi jeeta aur na hi haara tha

Jo kuch bhi hum ne chaaha, na woh mera, aur na hi tumhaara tha.....

I shut my diary and just sunk down in bed. I thought of talking to Hafsa for a while to lighten my mood. We were now such close friends, and she'd often try to ask me if I liked anyone, but I'd simply say 'No' despite the fact that my mind would be exploding over thinking whether I should really tell her. I didn't really get time to talk to her after that romance I saw that day between her and Hussain. I guess now's a good time.

Me: O madam, where you at? :)

She replies instantly.

Hafsa: Right here babe. Sup? :)

Me: Nothing much at my end but I'm damn sure there's a LOT going on at your end ;)

Hafsa: Umm.. what? o.O

Me: Bara romance ho raha tha, medical assistance room ke baahir huh? ;)

She doesn't reply for a minute. She must be blushing I'm sure.

Me: Lo zikar kia kar diya sahab jee ka, unhi ki yaadon mein kho gayi hai tu :P

Hafsa: Omg Nida, you...saw that? :O

Me: Duh ! ;) Bara romantic banda hai Sain yaar :D ;)

Hafsa: Uh yeah. He is actually. Jhoot kiyun bolun tujh se yaar :P

Me: So, are you guys going out? ;)

Hafsa: Uhh..well, he did say he'd pick me up at 7 today :P