High On Life

18: Sheer Disbelief

It's not okay Harry. It's not fuckin' okay. "It's okay." I say, stabbing myself over my stupidity.

"I can't believe you just did that ! And that too, without any warning." I said furiously.

He smirked. "Well, I'm warning you now then. That was just a warm-up. I'm goin' in for the kill." He whispered and began leaning in very slowly. I could feel my heart pound wildly inside me and my body stiffened at his snake-like movement as he grabbed my arms to steady me.

"Harry ! Stop !" I give him a slight push away from me.

"I was just kidding man." He chuckles and I could feel myself blush slightly.

There was an awkward silence in between us when all of a sudden we heard a loud noise in the background. Ignoring the noise, I roll my eyes and turn away from him, folding my arms across my chest.

"I uh...need to go to the bathroom. Be back in a minute." I excuse myself from the uneasiness and left the class.

I sprinted to the bathroom and just stared at my reflection in the mirror. My face...was just flushed out of its color. Harry...

Why Nida why ?? How did I let him kiss me so easily? But....it isn't my fault. It was so sudden and unexpected, I'm sure no other girl in my place would've saved herself. Although it was just a small peck on the corner of my lips, but still. Arghh !!! Eff you Harry ! Diediedieee !

"Okay Nida, take a deep breath. Inhale, exhale. Inhale......exhaaale." I exhaled deeply and tried calming myself but it wasn't working. Why why why?? This is so wrong and unfair.

The way it all happened felt so.....emotionless. Yehi iss ki jaga Shehry hota to mein..........OMG bas kar de Nida ! I smack my head with my hand to clear my weird thoughts. He freakin' hates you.

I washed my face, trying to contain myself, and finally headed out the washroom. And just then the bell rang, marking the end of recess.

I headed back to class, feeling a little dizzy and to add a cherry on top, I didn't even have breakfast. Lo, ab to pakka be-hosh hi hongi.

I leaned against one of the lockers as I felt slightly dizzy. I shake my head to see clearly but invain. I was steadily slipping along my locker when two strong arms wrapped around my waist from the back, holding me firmly to the person.

My head just kept spinning and I hear a whisper from the back. "You okay?"

"Do I look o.." And with that it just all blacked out.

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I opened my eyes to the medical assistance room....again ! Meri kismat hi kharaab hai yaar. The doctor who stood beside my bed, looked in my direction and smiled.

"Feeling any better now?" She inquires and I nod.

"Uhm.. doctor. Do you happen to know who brought me here?" I asked.

"Well, his name's Shehryaar, I think. Freshman year, right?" She asks a little excitedly.

"Are you...a student here, yourself?" I raise an eyebrow suspiciously.

She nods, confirming. "Yep. Final year. By the way, he's sooo hot !" She whispers at the last part.

"I know right ?" I giggled from the outside from the inside I was just like 'Yo lady, keep your paws off of him. He's mine !'.

"He looked so heroic as he carried you in here. The way he looked at your face as you laid all helpless in his arms was just.....aah!" She sighs all casually, whereas my stomach just kept twisting itself and my heart did constant flips as I heard her description.

"Is he your boyfriend?" She asks all of a sudden.

"Uh.. no no. He isn't." Haan. Kabhi ho bhi nahi sakta.

"But the way he looked at you showed that he was somewhat in love with you." She says.

"I don't know." I laugh. Shehryaar......in love? With me? That's hella proposterous.

"I know you might feel so weird hearing it all but I just feel like telling you more." She squeals. Calm down girl.

I smirked. "Do tell."

"Well, the minute he laid you down in this bed, he just stared at your face, with a very....confused and kinda angry sort of expression on his face, and with that, he just left the room.

"Bipolarity." I said under my breath, rolling my eyes.

"That was kinda bipolar though but.." Whoops ! Guess she heard me.

"Uhm okay. So go eat something and you'll be just fine. Always have your breakfast. It's healthy." She smiles and I smile back and get off the bed.

"Thanks." I say and she nods in gratitude.

Shehry's POV:

After leaving Nida at the medical assistance office, my mood was completely wrecked and I didn't have the slightest strength to attend any more classes, so I grabbed my bike and headed towards home.

My heart ached from the inside as her image crossed my mind again. She.....kissed Harry, in front of my eyes.

Pyaar kabhi bhi meray bas ki baat nahi thi, and especially after what I saw today, I don't think I'll ever be able to look at her the same way again.

I love you Nida. Don't do this to me. You've handled me at my worst, you can handle me in any way right? Just stay with me, till the day I learn how to tell you my feelings. I'm just so out of place and confused. You can't just give up? Not now. Not...ever. I know you don't like me one bit but the truth is, I'm crazy about you and...it hurts. I swear it hurts.

I don't even know how to confront you each day. Meri lag jaati hai, dil pighal jaata hai, saansein ruk jaati hain. Par tum....tum kabhi nahi samjho gi. Tumhein ab Harry jo pasand aa gaya hai.

This was just too much to handle and a small tear rolls off my cheek suddenly. What the eff?! Why am I wasting my tears over her? Over that one girl who just threw me apart with one little act.

I finally reached home, parking my bike in the garage and went straight upstairs into my room without confronting anyone in this terrible mood.

Maha enters the room and eyes me carefully.

"Aap ki aaj jaldi chutti ho gayi school se?" She asks, looking like an absolute cutie.

I lift her up and place her on top of my chest. "Haan." I whispered.

"Shehry, aap meray se katti ho?" She pouts.

I smiled at her cuteness. "Nahi."

"To phir?"

I sighed. "Maha, agar mein aap se promise karoon ke mein aapko ice cream khilaane le ke jaaounga, aur mein chupke se Imaan ko le jaaoun. Phir aapko kaisa lagay ga?" I ask her and she lifts her head off my chest and stares at me with a sad face.

"Aap meray saath aisa karo ge?" she pouts, about to cry.

"Aur agar mein aisa karoon, phir aap kia karo gi?" I ask her.

She was about to cry but she straightens her expression immediately. "Mein aapko mama se daant parwaaoungi. Woh aapko seedha karein gi. Aur phir, aur phirrrr... aap sirf mujhe le ke jaayein ge ice cream ke liye." She winks and I laugh.

I kiss her cheek. "Mein daant khaane ka mauqa hi nahi doonga apne aap ko." I whispered with my lips on her head as I held her against myself. Although Nida ne to de diya.

"Shehry?"

"Jee jaan."

"I love you bhai." She smiles.

"Shehry loves you too, baby." I smile at her and she fell asleep on me, very peacefully.

I guess Maha's right. Nida just needs to provide me with an explanation, so as to why she did that. And I'm gonna try getting it out of her, before it's too late.