Continuation of He's Leaving
Ever since that day I've been really upset but the funny thing is nothing has changed. Ansel still calls & texts me almost everyday just like usual. Right now I'm so confused but more so hurt because I can't say to him I love him once we end the phone call. I want to sooooooo bad but I can't & that's what hurts. If I told him I love him it will make me look weak. I can't be weak because I don't want to get to deep about how this really broke me heart. I'm happy things haven't really change but I can't get passed the fact that he bailed on me just because of his career & I just feel like I can't give him a pass because then every time he stars in a movie he can leave. I don't want this to be a pattern. because if this is a pattern I just need to rethink everything.
It's way passed midnight & well I'm up thinking being lost in all my thoughts of Ansel's and i situation at ungodly hours. I grabbed my phone & looked through photos of me and him. So many flashbacks running through my head but then my screen changed making me aware that I had a call coming in & it was him.
I took a deep breathe then released it. I then answered it.
"Hello"
"Hey beautiful"
"Hey Ansel..whatsup?"
"Nothing..I just got in. & now I'm getting in the bed...so tell me about your day"
"Well first....i woke up.."
"After talking to me"
"True after talking to you...I went to sleep & then woke up"
"Mhmm"
"Then I went to work....work was good. It went by fast so that's always good....& then I came home & made dinner for myself then took a nap but now I'm up again"
"I'm glad cause then I couldn't talk to you"
"Yeah no kidding...my sleep pattern is off now & that's not good."
"That's my fault"
"Yeah your partly at fault....so tell me a about your day"
"Today I filmed my favorite part of the movie. It took us 9 takes to make it perfect. It was fun. my director bought us donuts & it's so crazy because he bought your favorite for us & I thought of you. & now everyone loves that flavor donut now."
"Awww.....swirl donuts are the best"
"Jelly donuts are better"
"I beg the differ"
"You just hate jelly that's all"
"That's why they are nasty"
"Let's stop talking about donuts I have training tomorrow hino will kill me"
"I know hes crazy."
"You know we haven't worked out together in forever. When I get back we should do that again"
"There's a reason we stopped"
Ansel and I busted out laughing
"Hino is crazy...I literally almost died going up that thing"
"Y/n you were doing it wrong & he yelled so you wouldn't hurt yourself. You could've fell"
"It was so hard " I said laughing a bit but then I stopped because I noticed where this was going.
Ansel finished laughing too and we just sat in silence for awhile & then finally he broke it.
"You know....I'm just laying here and do you want to know what I noticed?"
