Ansel and I haven't been dating long but we have been together for awhile now. We were trying to keep it private & for the first 4 months it was but now everyone knows. lately I have been getting hate lately from his fans on my twitter and Instagram. Im not down by what nasty names they call me...you know it's pretty much expected so hey that's the life & this is what comes with it. I just take things day by day & don't let it bother me. Like Eddy says only words bleed. haha I'm not sure what Ed Sheeran means by that in his song photograph off his new album but when he sings the world makes sense to me so I'm ok. I keep that song on repeat because it just basically tells the story of me and Ansel.
Today I was flying in to see Ansel. He was in Milwaukee shooting for his new movie set to come out next year. I was so happy I was going to be with him for 5 days. It may not be much but right now how I'm feeling I just really need him right now. He just makes me strong & I need that right now.
Once I landed I met him on the set. I arrived just went they had wrapped up.
"Hey love" Ansel said rushing changing into his own clothes. The other clothes he had were for shooting. He was sleepy & I can tell but he is so excited to see me like I am to see him.
"Hey babe"I said.
"Come here" Ansel said putting his hoodie on & I walk to him & greet him with a kiss. I live for his kisses.
"Your here" Ansel said smiling against my lips
"I'm back where I belong" I said lovingly . We finished being cute & then headed out to get some food. We took our food and snacks back to the house we were staying in.
"I missed you" I said
"I missed you" Ansel said
"I'm so happy right now I'm with you like seriously" I said
"I've been worried about you" Ansel said seriously
"Worried?" I said not really knowing what he was going to say
"Yeah worried about you...us & just I don't want anything to come between us" Ansel said
"Me either...i just want you to know I'm strong & I'm ok." I said truthfully
"I know & I'm happy you are. I just need you to know that anyone who says something negative about us is shit...I need you to know I'm being honest & I always tell you what I'm doing who I'm with & everything. What I know you know...there are no secrets ok" Ansel said firmly
"I know, I trust you babe." I said to him & then leaning in to give him a kiss.
"I just wanted to remind you of that, I don't like to pay attention to negativity but whenever your in the mix I have to make sure that I protect you. I don't ever want you to feel like I don't have your back or I'm not there for you, & it's not easy for me to stand still & let anyone talk to you or talk about you any type of way & get away with it." Ansel said seriously
"I know but sometimes I guess I just step back for a moment and see it for what it really is. People are going to talk & that's just what they do, I just think if we stay solid & communicate like how we are now then we are going to be ok. I'll tell you now that I was kinda having a hard time this week. I was really missing you & people were kinda getting on my nerves" I said with a small laugh
Ansel just pulled me into him. After what I said it's not really much to say. I just laid my head on his chest & listen to his heartbeat. Ansel took my hand in his & gently rubbed his thumb against my skin.
"I don't want you to worry" I said
"I got you & you got me & that's just how it's going to be ok?" Ansel said
"Alright..im not going to say ok because I knew there was going" I said making him laugh
"I hate that you just said that....way to ruin a moment babe" Ansel said making both you & him laugh.
