I was going away on vacation with my family. I wanted Ansel to come but he has to start promotion for his new movie on Wednesday so basically he's working and can't go.
"It sucks I can't go" Ansel said mopping around
"I know but you have to work" I said
"I really feel like I should be going so I can hang out with your parents and your brothers...i haven't seen them since easter" Ansel complained
"Wow it's been that long?" I questioned
"Yes. That's why I'm mad" Ansel said
"Well I promise that when you get sometime off we can spend a few days with my family...sounds good" I said trying to make him feel better
The next morning it was time for me to catch my plane. Ansel drove me to the airport. it was now time for me to board my plane.
"You know I'll miss you right?" I said
"I'm missing you already....i love you" Ansel said & before I can say it back he grabbed me close & kissed me intensely. Once we heard the last call to board my flight we pulled away.
"I love you babe...I'll call you when I land" I said
"Have a safe flight babe...love you" Ansel said then giving me one last kiss & hug before I boarded my plane.
Two days later Ansel had been ignoring my text & calls. I know he's busy but I think he's purposely ignoring me. Why I don't know but he better have a good excuse for ignoring me.
The next day I woke up early and I decided to sit on my balcony that over looked the ocean. It was so beautiful to see the water & see the sky.
With my phone in my hand I look down praying he will call me right now. This view just reminds me of him especially all those times I flew with him & in the sky we would see first hand the sky lights up.
Finally my phone rings and it's him.
"Hey babe" I said
"Hey babe did I wake you??" He asked
"No I'm up...I was just thinking about you in a good way...ive been mad at you for the last two days...why have you ignored my texts..i know when you ignore me" I said
"I miss you" Ansel said
"No don't try and change the subject & try to be cute..." I said until he cut me off
"No you don't get it....i miss you & I'm losing my mind right now" Ansel said firmly
"I miss you & I get it but ignoring me that's hurtful you know how much I hate that" I said
"No you don't get it..I miss you & I'm literally losing my mind right now. I was ignoring you for these last two days because I knew I wouldn't going to get anything done. When I saw you get on the plane to leave me I finally understood something...i understood what it feels like....i get it now....i understand how you feel when I have to go. I took a moment & saw it in a different way. When I got home & tried to go to sleep I never felt alone like that before. The bed was such a lonely place.....i have a secret that's not a secret anymore but I have this habit of looking at you falling asleep next to me. your the last thing I always want to see & I couldn't do that & it scared the shit out of me because it made me think like...im always coming & going if I can't take you with me...but you choose to stay & be with me. Y/n your so amazing & you could be with any guy you want that can always be with you but your my girlfriend....& I love you so so much. & I was ignoring you because I was messed up & if I heard your voice I wouldn't get it together...i had to do promo with some level of sanity. I'm sorry babe" Ansel said pouring his heart out to me
"I love you so much babe. Now you know & that's part of the reason why I hate when you ignore me. I always need to hear your voice....it helps me & keeps me sane. When you talk to me & remind me how beautiful I am & how much you love me it helps me " I said lovingly
"I hope you can come see me & be with me in Chicago because I really want to see you" Ansel said
"I hope all goes according to plan just make sure there" I said
"I'll be there don't you worry." Ansel said
"Good "I said
"I have to go but I'm going to text you in a few minutes after my interview is over ok" Ansel said
"Ok have fun babe I love you" I said
"I love you too" Ansel said & then we hung up.
It's so nice that he misses me I can't wait to get back with him.
