Ansel and I just started our relationship just a few weeks ago. Tonight is date night and I'm excited about going out and being together. He's been away shooting for the new movie he was going to be in & we have been missing each other. So finally we getting be together.
Ansel took me to this nice Italian restaurant that was by a lake. The food was great. After we are we thought it would be nice to go for a walk. It was so beautiful out tonight. It was a clear dark sky & the stars were on full display. We walked hand and in hand just talking.
"It feels so good to be home & coming to see you...it's very lonely in Seattle." Ansel said being cute then leaning in to give me a kiss
"I've missed you a lot. I wish this movie would hurry up and bed made so I can have you back now" I said
"Just a few more weeks it will" Ansel said he then looked at me funny
"Is there something on your mind?" Ansel asked
"No not really" I said lying because there is something I want to talk about but I don't if it's proper to talk about it
"Are you sure you know we can talk about anything you want no matter how bad or good, comfortable or uncomfortable it may be " Ansel said trying to read my mind
"Well it's just...when you said about being lonely in Seattle it just kinda I don't know reminded me of you know.....with you being a guy and all......& you have needs." I was saying and then he chimed in
"Are you trying to talk about sex?" Ansel asks bluntly which is why I'm so into him...he is straight forward & I love that about him.
"Well yeah....i know your a guy and you have those needs & I know that sex is one of those things that makes you happy." I said
"So you want to have sex?....what are you trying to say?" Ansel asking and giggling trying to ask questions so I can get to the point of what I'm trying to say. As if this isn't like the easiest convo to have because I'm not all that experienced.
"What I'm trying to say is....that I'm sorry that I can't have sex with you I want to wait" I said getting it out
"Ok" Ansel said very nonchalant
"What kind of ok was that?" I asked
"I mean you say it as if I'm going to leave you because I can't have sex with you" Ansel said giggling & I don't get it
"Ok you say that now but once we get out of our honey moon phase you will say something different" I said
"No I wouldn't" Ansel said
"Yeah ok" I said
"No I wouldn't.....y/n stop a moment and think about have I ever once deepened kisses to the point where we get carried away to get to that point" Ansel said was true we never got there because Ansel and I talked & became friends first before we got into a relationship.
"Your thinking because it's true isn't it?" Ansel boasted
"I was just about to say you are right. What are you trying to say?" I asked
"What I'm saying is I'm not with you to have sex with you. I'm with you because I'm falling in love with you, your the only girl I care about outside of my sister & my mother...I want us to be serious because I know I won't find another girl to make me feel the way you make me feel, laugh or happy. I'm truly happy with you & my hope for us is to build. I see you in my future & I truly want that" Ansel said stopping so he can look into my eyes
"So your ok with waiting?" I asked
"Yes, I'm glad you want to. It's very early into our relationship & we don't need to move fast... I'm not ready to have a child at the moment. I mean I want kids just not now...." Ansel said
"That's how I feel, I just don't want us to move too fast & mess things up.....it makes me happy that we want the same things. " I said
"me too, let's just take our time and remain in our spiritual connection right now before we get into the physical....agree?"
"Agreed" I said then giving him a kiss
"I just want you to know I'm always going to respect you, and I want you to know your worth every single second that I don't mind waiting for." Ansel said making me feel better then kissing me
"I don't want you to focus on what others are doing or put stupid things in your head like I'm going to cheat on you because we aren't having sex...all that will do is destroy our trust. I don't want us to be like all these other people out here. I want us to do it the right way" Ansel said
"I feel better about everything now. I just always want to make you happy...in anyway I can but I don't want to give you too much cause then there's no fun in the future....you mine as well marry me for all of that & ain't nobody got time for that right now" I said making us both laugh
"You wanna know when I'm most happiest ?" Ansel asked
"When?" I asked
"It's whenever I'm done with all work stuff I get to see and talk to a special lady & hear all about her day..hear her laugh....hear her tell me a joke & hear her tell me how much she misses me whenever I'm not around....that when I'm the happiest...she's everything & more....& worth waiting for every second of my existence " Ansel said smiling & I just give him a kiss
"Nice try for the last line...that's twilight..." I said laughing
"Your heart was melting and everything" Ansel said laughing making me laugh
"Shut up" I said playfully pushing him
"But I do mean every word " Ansel said giving me a kiss.
