not even tony knew about janice. the door closed and i fell into brendons arms. my crying was uncontrollable at this point.
"you never told us about this" he said.
"i-i know im sorry!" i cried.
"oh god" he held me close while sarah locked the door.
"i just...it was so bad that...i-i forced myself to forget" i sobbed.
sarah turned to brendon. "shes kept this in for three years - maybe even longer"
"damn" he looked really hurt. i felt so so terrible. "im just so confused. how did you manage to trust so many people when people treated you like that?"
"riley was different. she never forced me into anything. she was good to me a-and just showed me my worth...she was fucking amazing. a-and you guys...the same" i wiped my tears.
"thats why you took her back as a friend. if it wasn't for her you wouldn't be who you are today" sarah said. i nodded.
"well janice is going so a psych ward so you're safe" brendon said.
"thank god" i wiped my tears. "im going to bed"
"wait!" brendon stopped me. "i need a song request from you"
YES!
i got into some pajamas, took off my make up and got into bed. brendon came into my room a while later with sarah. she'd made me a drink - bless her pure soul i love her with all my heart.
"play my favourite" i said timdly.
"okay" he opened his laptop onto the computer app and started playing.
"The moment you arrived they built you up
The sun was in your eyes
You couldn't believe it
Riches all around, you're walking
Stars are on the ground
You start to believe it
Every face along the boulevard is a dreamer just like you
You looked at death in a tarot card and you saw what you had to do
But nobody knows you now
When you're dying in LA
And nobody owes you now
When you're dying in LA
When you're dying in LA
When you're dying in LA
The power, the power, the power
Oh the power, the power, the power
Of LA
Nights at the chateau
Trapped in your sunset bungalow
You couldn't escape it, yeah
Drink of paradise
They told you to put your blood on ice
You're not gonna make it
Every face along the boulevard is a dreamer just like you
You looked at death in a tarot card and you saw what you had to do
But nobody knows you now
When you're dying in LA
And nobody owes you now
When you're dying in LA
When you're dying in LA
When you're dying in LA
The power, the power, the power
Oh the power, the power, the power
Of LA"
i slipped into darkness. brendon kissed my head. "she's so beautiful" he said to sarah. "how do you do that?" she asked. brendon just laughed and they left the room.
YOU ARE READING
high hopes | brendon urie
Fanfiction"if i killed myself tonight, the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the earth would still rotate, the seasons would still change, so why not brendon?" tw mental health, sexual assault, self harm, suicide attempts, homophobia
