"honestly we may as well date. all we do is make out" i said to riley. she bursted out laughing.
"we are good kissers" she pointed out. "can't blame us" i agreed, grinning. she leaned forward and connected our lips together. me and riley hooked up a fuck ton. but i do with every girl so who can @ me? and we were young...we were going to do this sort of stuff.
"this is gonna have to stop soon" she said as she pulled away.
i gasped. "you're being mature?"
she rolled her eyes playfully. "no! i have a date tomorrow. possible new girlfriend" she grinned.
"spill!" i climbed on top of her and squealed.
she laughed. "her names tamika and she is so so sexy. literal goddess. i made out with her a few times" she explained.
"oh i've fucked her before. you're lucky as hell" i replied.
"you've fucked half the girls in school" she pointed out.
"go to hell" i got off her and sighed.
"so...who you got eyes for?" she asked.
"no one really" i lied. i couldn't tell her. she'd be so hurt. but she had tamika?
"well why are you avoiding stiles?"
i sighed. "i like him, okay?" i said.
"no way! spill now!" she sat up giggling.
"i started seeing him differently. the more deep talks we had, the more hugs...and how cute he is"
"ahhh! my friend has a crush!" she squealed. i'd only been intimate with girls. this was so different. this was a boy. i'd never fallen for a boy before. im so so gay...
"i mean i didn't see it coming. you're so fucking gay" she said.
"ah shit. i am aren't i?" she nodded.
"i bet you think of him when you hook up with other girls" she grinned.
"yeah" we bursted out laughing.
"i should stop that" i said. "but i am young"
"yeah girl just go have fun...but i never expected that shit from you though. i've only done it with you and rosie" riley smirked. "brendon thinks you're so innocent" she added.
"i think he knows" i furrowed my eye brows and looked at my door.
"brendon!" riley opened my door.
"yeah?" he came upstairs holding bogart. "alexas not innocent" she said.
"you think i don't know that?" he looked at me. "how many girls?"
i bursted out laughing and fell off my bed. riley and brendon laughed too.
"i told you he already knew" i said.
"you told him?" she asked, helping me up.
"no. i think he figured it out"
"its not my business at all. but im pretty sure alexa doesn't own size 8 vans" brendon replies.
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high hopes | brendon urie
Fanfiction"if i killed myself tonight, the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the earth would still rotate, the seasons would still change, so why not brendon?" tw mental health, sexual assault, self harm, suicide attempts, homophobia
