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i got into the house and heard brendon. "you have some expla-are you okay?" he saw my tears. i wiped them and nodded. "im not sure if i believe you" he said. "im fine" i sniffled. "did riley do something?" he asked. "nothing happened" i went up the stairs. "alexa" brendon tugged at my hand.
i pulled away. "don't touch me!" i exclaimed. he jumped back in surprise. "alexa" he said, sounding hurt. "alexa! you're back!" sarah ran down the stairs and hugged me.
i got out of her grip. "stop!" i yelped. sadness filled her eyes. "alexa whats up?" she asked. "im fine! j-just stop asking questions!" i went down the stairs and saw zack was back. "i heard shouting from outside" he said. "something happened to alexa" brendon said. "nothing happened!" i lied.
"alright alexa-" zack stepped forward.
"zack if you fucking touch me i swear god!"
my parents looked shocked. "alexa calm down" sarah said.
everyone was looking at me like i was crazy.
"look. just go to your room and just...be alone for a bit" brendon said, gently pulling sarah downstairs.i started to cry again and went to my room. i slid down the wall sobbing. anger filled my body. i let out a cry and threw my phone at the mirror. the glass shattered. i picked up the sharpest piece and held it against my wrist, tears streaming down my cheeks. its like his hands were still there.
"stop!"
i froze. "alexa please! anything but that! what happened? we can talk about it. brendon and sarah a-and i can help! just please! dont leave me" riley sobbed.
i dropped the glass and turned around. "you promised riley" i hissed. i stepped closer. "you fucking promised!" i shouted. "alexa w-what did he do?" she whimpered. "he fucking touched thats what! you promised he wouldn't do anything! i trusted you! a-and all i fucking got was to be treated like i was nothing! again! i got assaulted! again"
"alexa...im so sorry" she whispered.
"just go" i shivered, wiping my eyes.
brendon came in. "c'mon riley. let her be" he said. he was crying. riley nodded and left the room. he looked at me. "get some rest. w-we'll talk later" he sniffled. i didn't think twice. i climbed into bed and went to sleep.
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high hopes | brendon urie
Fanfiction"if i killed myself tonight, the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the earth would still rotate, the seasons would still change, so why not brendon?" tw mental health, sexual assault, self harm, suicide attempts, homophobia