brendon stayed with me till i fell asleep which was so so sweet of him. i awoke later on to sarah putting my clothes away.
"good morning. you good?" she asks.
"i guess" i admitted. i was kind of happy that i had told someone what had happened to me. but now i had to ask brendon to tell sarah as it had made me way too afraid.
"as long as you're a little good then" she thumbs up'ed. "i'll get you something to eat" she turned to leave.
"im 14. i have depression and ptsd not a broken leg and you're my mom. not my slave" i got up fell out of bed before standing up and following her out. we went downstairs and brendon was on his phone. i sat next to him and texted him.
me: i feel awkward saying it aloud but can u tell sarah when im not around?
brendon: Of course iI will! I love you okay? Always here
me; ondjsjsj ily2 stop omg im gonna smile
brendon: I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
me and brendon giggled. sarah saw what we were doing and rolled her eyes playfully. i was starving so she gave me some lunch. i felt a little awkward around brendon because of what i told him. i was nervously picking my food. he noticed and put his arm around me, leaning my head on his side.
after i ate i got changed into some loose black leggings and a red oversized. i brushed my hair and went to my record player. brendons mom gave it to me as a present - she is so so fucking precious. i put in my billie eilish vinyl and let her voice fill my room before my phone buzzed.
brendon: She knows. You okay?
me: tysm ily ily ily and kinda of bc ITS OUT like im always scared and im happy that u guys know but its a lil bit scary ??
brendon: Ah i get you. Im proud of you for telling me. You can say the rest whenever you want.
me: even if i text it??
brendon: Whatever you prefer!
me; ur the best!! <3
brendon: No. You are.
i then noticed that riley texted me.
riley: im coming over
me: PLEASE DO
riley: u good??
me: well
riley: hugs are on the way <3
the doorbell rang. i grinned and went to answer it.
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high hopes | brendon urie
Fanfiction"if i killed myself tonight, the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the earth would still rotate, the seasons would still change, so why not brendon?" tw mental health, sexual assault, self harm, suicide attempts, homophobia
