I'll Follow You (GirlxGirl)

44. I love your hair

It's Christmas Eve and I am lying on the bed ill, while listening to everyone having fun down stairs. Their laughs and talking drives my head insane. My body is so stiff, and cold. I feel deaf, my throat is killing me and my nose makes me talk strangely, that was Nathan's word. I am just staring at the roof, thinking about what I am missing. The dinner and the look on my kids and wife's eyes. First Christmas Eve with my children and I am on the bed feeling awful. Worst of all everything hurts so bad that I am freaking out soon. I can't eat or sleep right.

"Hunt?" I watch my wife in the doorway looking at me worried.

"Yes, honey?" I answer smiling. It's nice to hear her voice.

"Are you okay?" She wonders as she sits down on the bed and I take her hand in mine.

"No, not really." I answer honest with my weak voice.

"Do you need anything?" She wonder and I sit up wrapping my arms around her as I rest my forehead on her shoulder.

"J-just you." I shiver as I rub my forehead on her with my eyes closed. She moves the duvet and lay above me. I hold her tightly enjoying her warmth so much.

"Hunt!" She laughs as I move my cold hands under her shirt.

"I-I'm so cold." I shake as she put her warm lips on my cheek.

"Yeah, I can feel it." She says and watch me with her worried brown eyes.

"I'm sorry that you are missing everything. I know who much you love to spend time with us..."
"No, it's okay," I smile.

"As long the kids are fine." I promise her, because as long they are having a good time, then I am happy.

"They are fine." She smile and then kiss my cheek again.

"Are you fine?" I ask as I stroke her back with my fingers.

"Yeah." She breathes out and rest her head on my chest. We just lie like this in quiet and I feel the warmth come back to my body.

My eyes have been open since Sky comes back to bed after she laid the boys, Jace and Andi. They are all sleeping. Andi is not even talking tonight. I guess she had a long day since she is quiet. My body feels like it is on fire right now. It's so warm that my eyes sting and everything are uncomfortable. How I lie and move. It makes me frustrated.

I end up lying with my cheek pressed against Sky's chest with my arm around her, but it is too warm. I sigh in irritation as I sit up on the bed.

"Hunt?" I turn to look at Sky who watch me worried as she move up behind me. She laid her arms around me, resting her chin on my shoulder.

"Are you okay?" She wonders, while I rub my eyes.

"No." I sigh and feel Sky move my hair away from my neck. I close my eyes of her light touch.

"No wonder, you are burning up." She says and I jump as I feel her trying to drag off my shirt. I watch her annoyed, but the look of hurt in her eyes makes my heart break and it leaves me speechless.

"Hunt, I know you don't like it, but you are so warm that I know it must feel awful." She says lightly and I take a deep breath as I look forward again. She laid her hand on my shoulder as I clear my sore throat.

"I love you, remember that." She whispers and kiss my shoulder. After a little while I nod and it makes her start pulling up my shirt. I clench my teeth as I drag it off, and I just sit like this, uncomfortable. I take a deep breath with my eyes closed as I feel Sky sit behind me, putting her lips on my horrible back.

"God, how warm and soft you are." She says and I look down unpleasant as I feel her lips and fingers move over my skin. Don't get me wrong, I love her touching me, her light lips moving on me and her hands brushing my skin. It makes me sleepy, and shiver, but also I also bite my inner cheeks, because the wounded memories come to my mind. I haven't told Sky that. Not so sure if I want to either. It might make her more worried and I don't want her to be scared.

Sky warps her arms around my stomach and kiss my shoulder.

"Relax, Hunt." She mumble on my skin and I take a deep breath as I lean back into her soft skin. I feel her smile on my shoulder as she kisses me. We sit like this for a while and I feel my heart calm down in my chest by her softness. My breathing is back to normal and I close my eyes of tiredness.

"Don't fall asleep from me now." She whispers. I open my eyes again as I turn around in her arms and push myself down on her.

"O-okay." She says surprised as I rest my cheek on her collarbone. She takes the duvet over us and I feel her moving her fingers lightly up and down my back.

"I'm sorry." I say as I rub my cheek on her skin.

"W-why are you sorry?" She wonders as I kiss her collarbone, feeling myself struggle to breath.

"About everything." I cry and lean my forehead on her skin.

"There is no need to apologize, Hunt. You don't have anything to be sorry for." She says gently and I take a deep breath. My salty tears end up on her skin, and I kiss them away.

"But I am." I tell and it makes her sigh.

"Okay." She tells me, and snort.

"Thank you." I smile and move my arms up, feeling her hair in my hands. I hear her laugh of me, but her hair is so soft to touch.

"What are you doing?" She chuckles.

"I love your hair." I smile on her skin as I breathe her in.

"And your smell." I say and hear her laugh.

"I love everything about you too, Hunter." I smile of her words.