Dear Diary | Chacha

Trust issues

                     ~Chapter 91~
                     TRUST ISSUES

Charlis POV:
Excuse me-
No no no no. This isn't happening again. One thing I've learned from the past is that this, this right here is a red flag.

I am 17. I am not moving in with anyone. I am not having a baby. I am not getting married. What ever happened to normal dating? Why can't we just do that?

Does he really wanna ruin his life for a girl he's been with for 1 month? Before Justin and Chase, I would have believed that. But now I got trust issues. People tell me one thing but they mean another.

I'm never gonna trust that a person is willing to make a commitment to me. I trusted Justin, and turned out he was lying about everything. I trusted Chase and he left me, so there is no way I'm falling for this again.

Charli: "no way. Nope. No. Sorry. Not happening"

He frowned

Bentley: "c'mon honey? I know it's fast but you really like me. And I love you. We can make this work."

No we can't? He's a teacher I thought he would be smarter then this??

Charli: "you know that isn't true. The school would find out and you would be fired. Then you'd be sent to jail."

I took a seat beside him

Bentley: "No one is gonna find out baby.  How would they?"
Charli: "I don't know. They just would."

He shook his head and grabbed my face in his hand

Bentley: "I just wanna make a commitment to you. I want you to know I'm serious about you."

there's other ways to show that.

He pressed his mouth to mine

Bentley: "I want you to know that you're mine."

He pushed me back onto the bed and kissed me harder

Bentley: "You're all mine, right?"

I don't know if I would put it that way...

He started kissing up my jawline

Bentley: "every inch of your body belongs to me and only me. No one's else, right?"

I pushed him off of me

Charli: "okay I don't know what the fuck is wrong with you but all of this is a total turn off?!"

I don't belong to anyone?? The only person I belong to is me?! Why is he being like this?!

Charli: "I don't know who you are right now but you are a the same person as you were yesterday. Just get out of my house"

He scaring me off.
This is all happening too fast

Bentley: "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to come off like that."
Charli: "just go. I need a break right now"

I have had no time to process that the love of my life just left without saying bye and now I'm all alone. Again.

Bentley: "sweetie. I'm sorry. I don't know what else you want me to say?"

Can he just leave so I can cry alone??

Charli: "I don't want you to say anything, I just want you to leave"
Bentley: "okay Il go. I'm sorry"

Finally.

He walked out of my room and I heard him leave through the front door.

I started crying into my pillow once again