Dear Diary | Chacha

Goodbye

  ~Chapter 84~
GOODBYE

Chases POV:
I- I don't know- I don't want to do this. I don't. I don't wanna hurt anyone. I just- I can't leave-

Charlis everything to me. She's my soulmate, my best friend, and even my family. But my parents are also my family. They raised me, they loved me, and I wouldn't be where I am without them... I can't leave...

I want to, but I can't...
I feel like the worst person in the word right now. I don't know if I can watch this.

Charli: "but- Chase please. Im begging you. Please. Il do anything. Please."
She begged on the verge of tears

I covered my eyes with my hands because I couldn't look at her

Chase: "I'm so sorry I'm so sorry"

She begins to sob

Chase: "please don't cry"
Charli: "I- I have nothing left- you took everything! You made me sell everything! I sold everything for you?! For us!"

I nodded slowly

Chase: "I'm so sorry"

She shook her head and sobbed some more into her shirt

Charli: "you took everything from me and left me with nothing... you took my stuf... my virginity... you took advantage of my love for you! And now I have nothing! I hate you!"

She began pushing me in the chest as she cried

Charli: "I hate you!"

I nodded

I understand why... I'd hate me too... i do hate me

Chase: "Il replace your stuff"
Charli: "no?! That's not gonna do anything!"

I don't know what I can do- is there anything I can do?

Chase: "please tell me what you want. Il do anything, I'm sorry"
Charli: "I want you to get on that train with me! Please!"

I looked down and shook my head

Chase: "I'm sorry I can't"
Charli: "yes you can, please"

That's the only thing I can't do...

We looked at the train and watched it leave

Charli: "you said you were sure... and now I have nothing... you took everything"
She sniffed

Chase: "I promise Il replace your stuf-"
Charli: "this isn't about my FUCKING STUFF?!"

Oh.

Charli: "this is about you! You're everything!"

Oh...

Chase: "please don't hate me... I can't leave with you hating me..."
Charli: "I do hate you. Il always hate you for this. Go. Leave. Get out."

I tried taking her hand but she just pushed me away and cried

Chase: "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..."

She didn't look at me

Chase: "If you want me to leave I will leave... and this might be the last time I see you... I just want you to know I love you and I always will. I'm so sorry I hurt you... Il look back at this day every day and Il feel sorry. So unless you say something Il go... Goodbye Charli."

Nothing

I stood up and walked away with tears rolling down my face. I looked back at her and she had her knees up to her face

I wanted to go back and hug her, tell her
I change my mind. But we both know this is what's best for both of us...

Once I got home my parents were waiting there for me like they knew I'd be back