Dear Diary | Chacha

Ready when you are

  ~Chapter 69~
READY WHEN YOU ARE

Chases POV:
As soon as she said that I was driving to the motel.

Of course I wanna lose my virginity to you Charli?? You're the only girl I wanna lose my virginity too?!

I just never thought she felt the same way. I wasn't gonna bring it up because I'm leaving in a month, and I don't wanna leave with a part of her I took? It'll just hurt more for the both of us.
But I also don't wanna leave without this.

We arrived at the motel and we both smiled at each other

Chase: "were you serious about that?"
Charli: "yes. I actually was. For the first time."

I'm  nervous. What if I'm not what she wants? I don't know what to do?? I don't have experience? I mean yeah I know how to kiss someone because I have experience but I have absolutely no experience in this.

We both got out of the car and I grabbed her hand and we ran inside to the front lobby. We got to the reception and went up to the guy.

Chase: "1 room please"

She squeezed my hand and I wrapped my arm around her waist

?? - "2 single beds or 1 double"

One

Charli: "one double"
Chase: "one double"
We both said at the exact same time

He looked at his computer

?? - "unfortunately you'll have to wait till morning. I'm sorry. We are out of rooms"

What?! No!

Our smiles faded quickly right after he said that

Charli: "are you sure?"
?? - "yes. We are very sorry."

She groaned and quickly grabbed my hand. She pulled me to the car and opened the back seat car door-

Chase: "I'm not-"
Charli: "yeah. Yes you are Chase."

This is my parents car??

Chase: "this whole time you've been postponing having sex because you wanted it to be special and now you want me to fuck you in the back of my parents car?"

She laughed

Charli: "Chase I don't care where it is. It's with you. It hasn't ever been about the right location, it's been about the right person. And you're the right person. So do you wanna do this or not?"

I guess she has a point... It's just kinda weird...? Every time I sit in this car im gonna think about it-

Why's that a bad thing-

I smiled and quickly nodded.
I pressed my lips against hers and moved my hands up to her neck, I brought my hands into her hair grabbing a hand full of it.

Without breaking the kiss I pushed her back into the back seats of the car

Luckily this is a SUV so it's a pretty big car

I reached for the door closed it behind us

Oh my god what are we doing.

I turned back around and she grabbed my face down to hers. She pushed my lips against hers and stuck her tongue in my mouth

As we were kissing I grabbed the hem of her sweater and began pulling it upwards

I quickly pulled away from the kiss before we could go any further

Chase: "you sure? Like 100%? I don't wanna do anything if you don't feel comfortable? Please tell me if you don't. Il completely understand. Stop me whenever you don't feel comfortable okay?"

She nodded smiling

Charli: "We're both doing this. Tell me if you wanna stop"

I kissed her again, I can't keep my lips off her, I don't know how Il do it once we get back to school

I began to pull her sweater over her head and she helped me get it off quicker. She grabbed my shirt and pulled it over my head.

I placed my hands on her back and started kissing her lips down her face to her jaw, then her throat. I sucked on her throat leaving dark spots on her neck. I moved my hand to the back of her bra and unclasped it. She quickly took it off of herself and I looked at her for a second

Chase: "you're gorgeous you know that?"
I blushed intensely

Charli: "Okay stop you're gonna make me blush, keep going"
She smiled

I grabbed the waist band of she sweats and pulled them down her legs. I kissed the insides of her thighs and she gasped

I grabbed her shoes and pulled them off her feet, I threw them to the front of the car.
She grabbed the top of my sweat pants and quickly pulled them down my legs.

I brought myself back on top of her and my chest rubbed against hers. She brought both her legs over my back pulling me closer to her

Our kiss was full of passion and that's the moment I knew she really did love me. This is what love feels like.

I brought my hands to the back of her head and pushed her head deeper onto mine

This was it. This is what I always wanted. And even though we're in the backseats of my parents car, I don't care. I have her. That's all I need.

After awhile of only kissing we both realized we'd been kissing for way to long.

We gotta do the real thing eventually

I pulled back from the kiss and held her face in my hands

Chase: "are you sure you wanna do this?"
Charli: "never been more sure"

We took off the remains of our clothing and we both stared at each other

Chase: "you're breathtaking"
Charli: "how many synonyms can you possibly find"

She laughed

A lot.

Chase: "I'm just telling the truth"
Charli: "okay"

I really hope she knows she's so beautiful. Inside and out.

Chase: "before we start this... I don't know what you're expecting but expect less. I don't know what I'm doing. Like at all. I'm very inexperienced"

She laughed

Charli: "and what do you think I am? I'm just as inexperienced as you. I don't care how good or bad this will be, It feels right. It never feels right but it feels right with you. So even if you have no idea what you're doing and it ends up being terrible, I won't know because I got nothing to compare it too. I'm ready to do this, I know I am."

A/n
chapter 69 😆😆
I actually had no intention of doing that😭 I didn't realize I was doing this on chapter 69 till I started the chapter LMAO😭😭

N e ways thank you for 25k reads!!!

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