Ghost

Chapter Eighty Seven

Spencers POV

We didn't leave Nat's room that night. Or the following morning. We were.. exploring each other.

       It was amazing and better than I could have ever imagined. I know we had waited a long time, but damn, was it worth it.

        We've both had a.. number of partners, neither of us were too excited to talk about, but we did. It was something we needed to discuss.

        With the lines of work we were both in, well it made it hard to avoid.

        Didn't think we had talked about these things? We can't share everything with you. There's a few conversations that have to be personal.

        Now back to my beautiful girlfriend who has her head on my chest as I play with her fingers. Our legs are wrapped together and we're just laying here in bliss.

I can't described to you how happy I am right now. Like I said, we've both had our fair share of.. partners. But nothing was like this.

       We seemed to mold together perfectly. I knew she was gorgeous, but I almost lost my heart when I finally got to see her. It was beyond words. She's beyond words. And she's all mine.

We're currently just laying in silence, trying to gain our breath back and finding comfort in each other in every moment. I could stay like this forever.

        I start playing with her hair and she hums in response. I think I have her close to sleep, so she surprises me when she speaks.

       "Spence?"

       "Hmm?"

       "Um.." she's really quiet. So I kind of panic. Maybe she isn't as in love with this moment as I am?

       "Yes, love? You can tell me or ask me anything, always," I tell her before I place a kiss on her forehead.

      She lifts her head so she's now looking up at me. "I know. This just might not be an easy topic," She's still speaking rather quietly.

      "Okay? Whatever it is, it's all worth talking about with you," I'm trying to be encouraging for her and me.

       She takes in a deep breath, "how do you feel about kids?"

       Oh. This is not what I expected. Okay, I had no idea where she was going with this, but I know I didn't think it was kids. And I'm not even sure what she means. I'll wing it.

       "Oh, well, I wouldn't say this is a difficult topic to talk about. I don't really know much about kids, but I think they're cool, I guess? I only really know Peter and he seems alright. Are you getting more kids on the team, or..?"

       She laughs. I don't know why. I thought I answered that very well? I must be missing something.

       What else am I suppose to say? I don't really have experience in this department. I'll just wait for her to say something. I might make this worse.

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                                        Nats POV

     I couldn't help but laugh. Poor girl doesn't even realize what I meant. She really did try, though. And she did ease some of the tension I was feeling about bringing it up, which she did without even realizing it.

     I was worried about this conversation. I know I have to tell her that I can't actually carry any kids of my own.. and I'm not even sure if kids are something she wants. We've had so little time to ourselves lately.