yay got a hair cut later today, that's all i got, games and a haircut, that's all i have in my life.
when i say "i want to die" everyone thinks i'm just being edgy, hahahhahahahahaahahhaahah... no, i'm in a constant unbearable pain and i just want it to end, but how, if u read this, please tell me a painless and fast way, i don't want help at this point, my heart is an all consuming void, empty, and in pain
it's as if there's a social bottle neck, a bottle neck which is impossible to bypass, i will always be a friend to everyone, nothing more, and often less.
humans are a social species, we naturally group together for survival and comfort, but what purpose does society have for someone who can't operate as a part of society, what purpose does my life serve if i can't be with with someone, if i can't love anyone, i've had 2 people who i've been interested, 2 people i've wanted to spend time with, but i will always be alone, why can't i just accept that, why can't i just give up, why do i persist to get up, time and time fucking again and again, i won't just stay the fuck down and accept my place, I'm incapable of being normal but i persist to keep trying to be normal, it's a futile task, i just wanna give up so bad, so why can't i just do one thing right.
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versions 1.3-1.6 (Diary 1) [ARCHIVED]
Non-Fictionmoved to my new diary where hopefully i'll be less of a whiny bit- i mean where hopefully i'll be more mature for her time moves on, whilst my life is in a state of constant transit i'll just be refering to myself as L, i am currently on my final ye...
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