you know, although my mind is a constant torture, i was happy for the first time in awhile, i know it's anti climactic but i started this diary right before my melt down which seemed to put things in perspective. that perspective being that i was kinda a shitty person and friend, wishing that my best friend would break up with her boyfriend just so she could be with me, what stupid thoughts. but now everything seems a little more colorful then it's usual greyishness, like don't get me wrong i still wish she'd be with me, but that's just unrealistic, if she ends up staying with her boyfriend that's ok, if she ends up with me that's ok as well, hell if she ends up with a complete stranger that's ok as well (like of course that'd hurt me but what can u do am i right). guess all i'm saying is that i accept how she feels, hell they probably feel this way for each other, and i don't wanna split them apart (again don't get me wrong i'd ask her out in an instant if i could but you know, what can you do)
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Non-Fictionmoved to my new diary where hopefully i'll be less of a whiny bit- i mean where hopefully i'll be more mature for her time moves on, whilst my life is in a state of constant transit i'll just be refering to myself as L, i am currently on my final ye...
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