MY EX FIANCE AND MY COUSIN IS GETTING MARRIED
I felt my phone vibrated so I immediately took it from my pocket.
I stopped midway when I saw the registered number on the screen.
It was Shiro. What he needs from me?
Even if I am hesitant, I still open his message.
Shiro: I am sorry for the inconvenience, since you are part of my past, I still want to invite you for my upcoming wedding. Just let me know if you're sure so we can deliver the invitation to you.
I already got the news last week that my ex fiance Shiro proposed to my cousin Liara.
It hurts me, but coming that news and message directly from him is so painful.
So after 8 months being away from him huh, they're already getting married.
I sighed, I already think of this for days, but now I am decided.
I replied to him.
To Shiro: You and my cousin will be the one who will give the invitation directly at me. Meet me in the usual restaurant.
I tried to wiped the tears that I didn't notice while typing.
I took a deep breath when I finally hit the send button.
Shiro: Okay, my fiance agreed.
Fiance, you used to call me that... before.
Until the day came. I’m not ready to face them but I need to do this.
I am the one who comes first so I’ve waited for them. I took the table that's already reserved for us.
Then after 15 minutes of waiting, they finally came.
I am the one who saw them first and they looked so happy.
They waved their hands at me when they finally noticed me, and I just gave them a small smile.
"Kisha! Long time no see," bungad ni Shiro.
Then my cousin tried to reach my cheeks to kiss.
"How are you, Kisha?"
"I am fine," I answered.
"Let's eat. I already tell them our food since alam ko naman ano yung favorites niyo, i-se-serve na lang."
"Thank you, Ki!" they said in unison, and they looked at each other because of that and they both laughed.
I tried to fit myself to them so I put a fake smile on my face.
While eating, they are the one who just talked.
When they ask me I will just answer them or nod my head.
After we finish eating, I decided to finally talk what I really want to talk about.
"Here’s our wedding invitation, you should go okay? We are happy if you are at our wedding," Shiro uttered.
I looked down at their beautiful wedding invitation.
I clenched my fist below the table.
"W-Why are you crying?" I heard them asking.
I immediately wiped my tears.
"Is it okay to talk about the past? I just want to free myself, you can also ask me all your questions that you can't ask me before."
They both stared at me with the same look... pity.
I don't need that look, I just want to let go everything from the past.
"It's been 8 months..." I whispered.
"Do you still love him?" she said in a hesitant voice.
I silently watch their hands holding, then Shiro suddenly intertwined it. It's like he's supporting her no matter what happens, like how he used to be when we were still together.
I looked up at them with my eyes full of agony and tears.
I gazed at Shiro. "How can I move on from 11 years relationship with almost marrying each other. Almost."
They both went silent after I bravely said those words.
"Are you happy?" I asked.
And they both nodded.
Pagak akong tumawa habang sunod-sunod na tumutulo ang luha ko.
"Sobrang sakit pa rin pala," at tumawa akong muli.
"Damn it Kisha, why are you hurting if you are the one who broke our relationship!" Napaigtad ako sa diin ng pagsalita niya.
Mabuti na lamang at wala masyadong tao banda sa amin.
I sobbed for seconds and composed myself again.
"And you should be thankful for that!" I snorted.
"Bakit ka ba nagkakanyan Kisha, ikaw yung sumira sa relasyon niyo," mahinahong sabi ng pinsan ko.
"I’m not regretting every painful decision I did. It was all for you, Shiro. It's for your own happiness even if it's breaking me again and again." I gave them a tired look.
"You said you're happy right? Then my decision was the best," I added.
"Pero bakit?" Shiro asked.
"My decision was for the best but I didn't say that it's not painful for me, na kapag nakipag hiwalay ako ay ayos na," I answered.
"Mahal mo pala siya bakit mo iniwan?!"
"Dahil sayo Liara!"
Pareho kaming pinahinto ni Shiro. "Hey, stop. We are in a restaurant."
"Wala akong ginawa na ikakasira ng relasyon niyo noon." Mas naging kalmado na siya.
Alam ko. Sa ating tatlo ako lang ang nakakaalam, kaya ako lang din ang masasaktan.
There's no third party when Shiro and I were still together, kaya mas mahirap sakin na mag let go.
"Shh Liara, wala kang kasalanan sa nakaraan namin. Please respect us Kisha, we are getting married, there's no point bringing the past."
Ouch.
That hits different kind of pain.
"It is. You two should know my reason, hindi ko naman kayo sisirain. Para sa ating tatlo ‘to. 11 years with you, you should know Shiro that I am not that kind of woman, of all people dapat alam na alam mo ‘yon. I am matured enough that I know our relationship became boring. I am a boring ex girlfriend and ex fiance of yours."
Natahimik silang dalawa.
"Bago maging tayo sa college, I pursue you for 2 years just to accept me to be your person. I know you fell for me, but Liara and I are different. When you first laid your eyes at her, I knew it already. You fell for her genuinely and unconditionally, unlike me."
"Ikakasal na tayo nang makilala mo siya. I regret that part that you met my other family in our province. Sabi ko sa sarili ko na sana hindi na kita piniliit noon para hindi mo nakilala si Liara, na para hindi ako nagkaroon ng desisyon na iwanan ka kasi alam ko na mas sasaya ka sa kanya," I felt my voice cracking but I still continued.
"Paano mo nasabi ang lahat na ‘yan? Even if we were together, hindi kami nag loko o nag tago ni Liara sayo, you are the one who decided."
"Don't underestimate me, Shiro. We are together for eleven years, I know how you talk to me, how you look at me, how you smile at me, and you unconsciously giving that to Liara when we were still together. And I hate to admit this but everything you give to Liara is beyond everything I experienced with you. Ako na yung fiance pero sobrang naiinggit ako, sobra. Sinasabi ko na sana gano’n mo rin ako tignan, na gano’n mo rin ako kausapin o ngitian, lahat sana kahit nakasama naman kita ng matagal. Alam na alam ko Shiro kasi lahat ng binigay mo kay Liara ay binibigay ko sayo."
"Sorry," narinig kong sabay na sabi ng dalawa.
It's so painful but I am happy that I didn't became the villain of their own story.
I stood up from my seat.
"No, don't be. Nag mahal lang naman tayong tatlo, mas pinili ko lang na isa na lang ang masaktan at ako ‘yon. I can see that you are really happy together, and I am happy too because you two are important to me."
Liara immediately hugged me.
I bit my lower lip to stop myself from sobbing.
Then Shiro hugged me too. The last hug from him.
"I am sorry, Kisha. I didn't think of your feelings, hindi ko alam na ganito kabigat ang dinadala mo ngayon. But I am thankful that you let me go, Kisha. I am really thankful," bulong niya sa akin saka kumalas sa yakap.
That was the painful thank you I received from him.
"Can you give me again a last kiss in my forehead, just like the time when I broke up with you," I pleaded for just one kiss in my forehead.
Shiro looked at Liara, and she nodded.
I felt his kiss from my forehead and I just hardly close my eyes. This is the last.
I slowly get their wedding invitation for me.
"I am not sure if I will attend your wedding, pero akin na ito ha, remembrance na nangyari ang araw na ito. I can finally let go without holding back."
They both nodded.
I gave them a warm and genuine smile. "You two are soulmate. Be happy."
"We will."
Ako na ang naunang umalis, pero nang pagtalikod ko pa lang sa kanila saka ko pinakawalan ang lahat ng luhang pinigilan ko habang kausap at kaharap ko sila.
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