Overwhelmed

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Today is just an absolutely horrible day. Like 2020 just hates me in general.

I lost my ADHD medication.

Ojiro is sick so I can't distract myself with his tail.

We had a pop quiz in English.

I got detention for accidentally throwing my pencil across the room in math.

They ran out of hamburgers during lunch.

I fell and hit my wrist at a bad angle and it really hurts but everyone told me I was overreacting.

Bakugo burned a hole in my pe uniform and now I have to find money for another one.

And to top it off, my crush is in detention with me. And I look/feel like shit.

When Mr. Aizawa finally releases us from the hell known as school, I walk with Shinso. No talking, just quietly walking.

I'm practically exploding with nervous energy because of the lack of medication but I walk as normally and as quietly as I can so I won't annoy the other boy.

I open the dorm door for him and he thanks me quietly.

Nobody's in the common area so I decide to study for the makeup test I have to take.

When I finally immerse myself in the work I can push away the twitches from my ADHD.

Probably half an hour later my phone rings with a text from Mina.

-Bubblegumbitch-
'Sad feels. Come over?'

Part of me wants to stay and study for the test. A large part. But the smaller part says she's my friend. She's my friend so I should spend time with her.

I decide to do so.

The next day I still fail my test but Mina is in a good mood so I'm happy.

I talk to Recovery Girl but I won't be able to get more medication for a week. I don't know if I can wait that long.

The whole day is filled with wandering thoughts and restless twitches.

By the time the end of school finally rolls around I feel like I'll burst. But I really need to practice English.

"Hey, Bakubro! Can you help with my English homework?"

"Denkiii we're so done with you always wanting help with your classes? It's not like you'll pass anyway." Sero complains.

"Yeah, it's not like you ever do anything for us." Mina adds.

"I was there for you yesterday!" The stress builds up and is oh so close to spilling over.

Just

One

Drop

From

Spilling

Over.

"Stop overreacting, it's not like you were doing anything else."

That's. Not. True.

A scream builds up at the base of my throat. Hot tears push at my eyes. Threading to spill over.

And they do, it all does.

My voice fills the hallway as I clap my hands over my ears.

Just shut up.

Shut up.

Shut up.

Shut up!

"What the fuck?"

"Shit! The lights!"

"What happened?!"

"He's gonna blow the power!"

"Get away from him!"

"Someone get Mr.Aizawa!"

"Fucking hurry!"

That's not true!

I work so hard.

Why am I always treated like this?

It's not fair.

It's not fair.

I can only scream to unleash the pent up frustration and anger that's been there so long it's become a part of me.

"Guys! Get away from him!"

"Hurry!"

"Where's Mr. Aizawa?!"

"Shinso! You can't be near him!"

"Kamin- Denki! Hey, listen to me. Denki, you need to calm down. Denki. Denki!"

I'm on my knees, crying and choking.

Choking on air and nothing and everything.

"Hey, you're having a panic attack. Denki, listen to my voice."

Two hands wrap around my wrists and I look up to see a blurry boy.

"Denki, it's okay. It's okay. It's alright. Breathe. In, out. In, out. In, out. There you go."

The voice is deep and soothing. It's not yelling at me or mocking me. It isn't scoffing or mean in any way.

"There you go. Deep breaths. There you go. Hey, easy now. It's okay."

Somehow I find myself curled in the lap of a boy I could barely speak to not an hour ago.

"Good. That's good. Deep breaths. There you go."

He hugs me close and I bury my head in his shirt.

"Okay, good. It's alright. You're okay."

It'll be okay.

I finally calm myself down and sit up.

Half of my shirt is burned away and every surface is charged with electricity.

I sheepishly draw the volts into my body and apologize.

"I'm sorry Shinso. Really really sorry. I shouldn't have done that. I need to keep a better cap on my emotions."

"It's fine. You shouldn't keep everything bottled up, that's not good."

"I know... it just feels like no one has time for the class idiot."

"You're not an idiot, you got into the top high school in Japan. That's something to be proud of. And I'll always have time for you. Don't hesitate to come to me."

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