The candle light vigil was today during school hours. It's been three days since I found out my ex-boyfriend died. That was some terrific news! I'm being sarcastic by the way. It was the worse news I ever heard in my life. So anyways, the vigil is in an hour and I still need to type something up to say. Katie and I were waiting by the computer trying to think of something good. "I can't concetrate!" I complained to my sister. "Well, there is only an hour till the vigil. Hopefully you can think of something, Maya." She pat my shoulder then ran to class. I started to type lies. All the things I wanted to say, I couldn't. What would people think of me? The crazy girl who won't sobb over the guy who she used to date, who killed himself. That's a weird label isn't it? Then I heard the door behind me close. I looked back and didn't see Katie or Marisol. No, it was Tori. "Hey, are you doing okay?" I rolled my eyes and continued to type pathetic words. We haven't spoken since Zig and I kissed. Or since she overheard me talking to Zig about it. "Can I get you anything?" she asked in a polite tone. "Oh, now you want to be my friend? After Cam dies. Typical, Tori." She just left after I said that. Didn't say anything. Just left. Well, I kind of made her leave. At least that shut her up.
It was time for the vigil. I saw everybody in a crowd. Some were crying or just had a tear stain on their shirt. Some were just silent, like Dallas. "Um, can I have everyone's attention?" Marisol's voice was really soft, but everyone could still hear her clearly. "Here to speak for today, is Maya Matlin." As soon as I heard my name I headed up the stage. I looked around at all the sad faces. I crumbled my paper I wrote and shoved it in my pocket. "This is so stupid." Everyone exchanged confused glances with eachother. "This is so, so stupid!" I sounded angry because I was. "Everyone blamming themselves or eachother. And I won't cry. I won't. If you think about it, Cam made a choice. Obviously a stupid one. I mean, it's not anyone of our faults. I mean, it's his fault!" Katie spoke out, "Maya, he was sick." I shook my head, "He should have fought!" My voice got louder. "He was really sick." I was mad at her and everybody around me. Forcing me to speak. "He should hace fought harder!" I took a deep breath and took my green bandana off of my forehead and held it like the memory of Cam in my hand. I ran off the stage. I could feel everyone's eyes staring into my broken soul. "Maya!" Katie yelled out among the silence. I started to slow down in my tracks, but I kept walking. Planning to head into the school. I didn't turn back. And I'm never going to.
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Flashbacks (On Hold)
Teen FictionMaya is still grieving over Campbell. She tells her story about how she dealt with it. And the other story of meeting another guy, named Miles Hollingsworth. (Cover made by me)