You wouldn't care if i explained

Fear

i want to love her
but then i remember what love feels like
how the last time i loved ended
how my last words were almost "i love you"
to a girl who doesn't know love

i want to trust her
but i remember how i trusted before
how the last time i poured my heart into someone's hands
she used it to make me cower under her thrown
and broke me into a million pieces

i'm sorry i cant fall in love
i'm sorry i cant trust
i'm sorry i'm too scared of what i've been through
to bring vulnerability back into my life
maybe i'm ruining our chances
maybe you'll stay and wait for me
but know that i do want you
i'm just scared of myself