You wouldn't care if i explained

Parenting II

tell me to hide myself
and ridicule who i choose to be
tell me my friends are "toxic"
that my "illness" controls me
but it's not true
that's just how you see it
you refuse to believe that i'm not a princess
i like books and writing
and i don't like boys as much as you wish i did
but you ask me to be perfect around you
the therapist says i try not to burden you
and that's completely true
because the second i let you see me
when i'm crying over losing my friends
you tell me i'm a danger to myself
that i can't even go to the bathroom
or sleep in my own bedroom
you want to send me back to the hospital
but for what reason?
because i was myself?
that i showed you who i really am?
is seeing the true colors of your daughter
truly that terrifying that you feel the need
to put her in a mental hospital?
clearly it is
clearly you can't handle who i've become
so sit on the side
watch my mask of who you want me to be
i'll never show you myself
you'll never truly know who i am
you'll just live in your web of lies
believing select things that you want to believe
and that's fine
because at least then you'll leave me alone
and almost just forget about me
again